that Scorpio had heard enough action, reached over to slam down the receiver. I quickly wrapped up my business and tried to get some rest before going to work.
Chapter 2
Nokea
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I had mega explaining to do. Daddy was so furious with me for not marrying Stephon that he wasnât even speaking to me. Mama, on the other hand, understood what I was going through. She told me to take some time for myself and use the days I had set aside for my honeymoon to relax. Knowing how messed up I was, she told me sheâd keep LJ until I got myself together.
No doubt, I was so screwed up. The only person who was really happy about the whole thing was my best friend, Pat. She didnât want me to be with Jaylin or Stephon. Right after Iâd escaped from the church, sheâd left a message on my voicemail and thanked me for not making the biggest mistake of my life.
Still, I felt terrible for leaving Stephon at the altar. And Iâd never forget the look on Jaylinâs face. I spent hours trying to make sense of the whole thing, and had gotten a room at the Ritz Carlton in Clayton just to clear my head. Iâd been there since Saturday night; my mind was starting to feel at ease. But Jaylin wasnât returning any of my calls. If I talked to Stephon first, I was afraid Iâd say something I really didnât mean. My true love, Jaylin, was the one who deserved an explanation of why I couldnât marry him. Knowing him, though, heâd probably never want to speak to me again.
After a long bubble bath at the Ritz, I went downstairs to have breakfast. When I finished, I went back to my room and held the phone in my hands. I called Jaylin at Schmidtâs Brokerage Firm, where he works as an investment broker. Expecting his secretary to answer, I was speechless when he did instead. I was silent.
âJaylin Rogers,â he snapped again.
âHi, it . . . Itâs me, Nokea.â No response. âJaylin, are you there?â
âI canât talk right now.â
âOkay, then can we talk later? Iâm at the Ritz in Clayton. Will you stop by after work?â
âYeah.â
âListen, if youâre not going to come just tell me. Please donât have me waiting for you. We really need to talk.â
âDamn, I said Iâll be there,â he snapped. âGotta go.â He hung up. I hated this side of him, but I knew his attitude was because of me.
I picked up the phone again and called my parentsâ house to check on LJ. When Daddy heard my voice, he gave the phone to Mama. I couldnât believe how he was treating me, like it was his life or something. But I also knew he just wanted the best for me.
âHowâs LJ?â I asked Mama.
âHeâs doing fine. Stop worrying so much, you know your baby is in good hands.â
âI know, Mama. I just miss him, thatâs all.â
âI understand. Have you spoken to Jaylin yet?â
âNo, but I plan to speak to him later.â
âOkay. If you need me, Iâm here.â
There was a knock at the door so I hurried to end my call. âI know, Mama, and thanks. Give LJ a big kiss for me and Iâll see you soon.â
We said good-bye, and when I opened the door, I was so glad to see Pat. She came in and we held each other tight. I couldnât help crying on her shoulder. âI know, sweetie, I know exactly how you feel,â she said, comforting me.
I wiped my tears and we walked over to the couch to take a seat. âWhy donât this bad dream just go away, Pat? Why is it just one thing after another?â
âBecause, thatâs just how life is. God never said it was going to be easy.â
âI feel like Iâm failing Him too. I canât seem to get anything right. Tell me, where did I go so wrong? All I want is to be happy.â
âNokea, I didnât come here to give you one of my lectures. Iâm here as your best friend and not a