Janice amidst the confusion. I couldn’t let anything happen to her! Oh god, were we going down? She needs to be okay. That is priority!
However she was able to, through my shaky vision, it was clear the flight attendant tried to make another announcement. Not only was that not possible, nobody could calm down. I started to panic severely too. How could I not? I just wanted Janice. I need her okay! She needs to be okay. Today couldn’t be the day she dies. I won’t let that happen!
My head and heart swarmed with so much pain from those thoughts. It swarmed with so many different pains. The screams intensified and made me ache. Somehow through that chaos, I held onto a strand of hope that everything was going to be okay.
That strand snapped for me as the plane shifted forward and down this time. We were going down. We were crashing, we’re going to crash. Janice needed to be okay, though. My god, I needed to get to her! What is happening! Oh god, oh god! Janice! Janice!
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Was I alive? Was she? It was hard to tell right away because I barely had a shred of breath left before I reached the top. Of course, even then, she occupied my thoughts completely. She needed to be okay. When I reached the surface, pulling her hard with me, I inhaled deeply as if taking in all the life I thought was lost. I boosted Janice’s upper body out of the water at the same time.
There was no time to take anything in other than the fact that I was alive, and Janice was wth me and safe. “Janice,” I managed to say after a moment of breathing, making sure her head was still up. It was harder than I expected to stay above water for air. The waves were very rough, and I learned quickly I would be taking all of her weight. “Janice!” I said louder, face tilted towards the sky as I slumped in the water more. She was still limp against where I held her to my chest and her head to my shoulder.
Pushing the water under us to keep myself up, I shifted her down slightly from my shoulder to take in her face. Keeping her above the water still, I gripped her head and turned it towards me, needing to see her. And when my eyes reached her wet face and closed eyes, I felt ready to break. She was clearly unconscious. The important thing I noticed though was she was breathing through her mouth rapidly, thank God.
“Janice!” I wheezed, abruptly coughing continuously. “Come on, come on, you’re fine,” I said, kicking harder to keep us from getting beaten down by the waves. Tightening my grip on her hips, I pulled her up like before and rested her more on my shoulder. It allowed me to feel her heart beating. That’s all the reassurance I needed despite not knowing what we were going to do.
Denial still surrounded me, and I was keeping it that way. I couldn’t believe what happened not a few minutes ago, and I wouldn’t try to process it. I would handle that task when I had the chance. The current priority was staying alive and finding a way. I couldn’t accept that we were doomed out in the middle of the ocean. There might be some debris from the crash somewhere around us.
Trying to calm down and even my breathing, I quickly looked around us in the water. There needed to be parts of the plane, material or debris to rely on. With how high the waves were and how I was hardly staying above, it was hard to see anything. Before I could sink into a full panic and lose hope, my eyes caught our faith and savior.
Land. Too good to be true almost. That, above everything else, made me seriously question whether I truly was alive. It seemed impossible that we would crash into the ocean but not out of sight of land. It’s not like there was another option though and if it was really there, that was promising.
“Alright, we are okay. We are going to be fine,” I said, shifting us more towards where I saw the land. With my eyes burning and having my body having a rough time staying