see him extending his hand, see his fingers flexing about the brass door handle, clasping it, squeezing it inward.
Nothing happened.
She wished she could see the large, old-fashioned brass key in the lock, her protection, her only protection against him.
She heard the door shake as he squeezed the handle, then, in frustration, shook it hard.
Why wouldnât he go away? Oh, please, make him go away.
The key rattled loudly in the lock. He was exerting great pressure. Suddenly the heavy key fell to the floor, making a loud cracking sound on the bare wood, like a pistol shot. She jumped, stifling a cry.
There was no sound now. She could see his face changing as he came to understand the sound, see him becoming slowly enraged as he realized that she had locked him out. The door was strong and thick as Drago Hall itself. It wouldnât yield.
She held her breath, waiting for him to call out.
Her heart poundedâloud, fast strokes. Could he not hear her heartbeat? Feel her fear of him?
She could see his gray eyes, darkening now, dilating with anger and cold in the night gloom of the vast eastern corridor. In the daylight they would be as light and clear as Liggerâs newly polished silver.
âVictoria?â
His voice was soft and compelling. She stuffed her fist in her mouth, not moving.
âOpen the door, Victoria.â
Now the masterâs voice, threaded with steel but still quiet, soft-sounding. Sheâd heard it rarely, normally directed at servants, and theyâd been frantic to obey. She remembered once heâd turned on Elaine and spoken to her in that tone. Bright, strong Elaine had cowered.
What to do? She couldnât answer him. Perhaps he would believe her asleep. The thought of him believing that she was deliberately disobeying him made her flesh crawl.
Sheâd come to live at Drago Hall at the age of fourteen after the marriage of her first cousin, Elaine Montgomery, to Damien Carstairs, Baron Drago. Victoria, starved for affection, had adored him then, seen him as the hero, the perfect gentleman, and heâdtreated her with careless affection, giving her the kind of attention he occasionally bestowed on Elaineâs pug, Missie, or his small daughter, Damaris.
But no longer.
When had he begun to look at her differently? Six months ago? Nanny Black had teased her about being âlate to grow on the stalk.â Whatever stalk was in question, evidently Damien now believed her grown enough. She wanted to yell at him, scream at him to leave her alone. She was his wifeâs cousin, for pityâs sake. Didnât a man owe loyalty and fidelity to his wife?
The minutes passed. He said nothing more. Her heart continued to pound in slow, loud strokes. The door handle rattled again suddenly, then abruptly stopped. Her breath caught in her throat. She heard his footsteps going away now, fainter and fainter down the eastern corridor.
She remembered suddenly the summer that one of his hunters had hurt its leg in a trap. Heâd shot it. Then walked away, tossing his gun to one of the white-faced grooms.
She had to do something. Because if she didnât, he would win. He would trap her and do just as he pleased with her. She would tell Elaine, she had to tell her cousin. Even as the thought sifted through her mind, she was shaking her head. Tell Elaine that her husband wanted to ravish her young cousin? She swallowed, picturing her humiliation when Elaine laughed at her, shook her head, and berated her for spouting such ridiculous, such mean nonsense. And she would. Unlike her husband, she was loyal and faithful.
She couldnât stay here at Drago Hall. Not now.
Victoria lowered her face into her hands. She was shaking, but there were no tears. The feeling of helplessness was paralyzing. No, she thought, shakingher head, no. How could he want her? It made no sense. Elaine was beautiful, with her lustrous black hair and her pale green eyes, and accomplished, her