âGo to it.â
As he looked at the food, Clay was afraid he might shout with the hunger he suddenly felt and that had been, somehow, postponed until this very minute. He ate everything. When heâd finished, he looked up to see that Jacob had fallen over on his side and was moaning. Mrs. Larkin took hold of his shoulders and set him upright as though he was a big doll.
She turned to Clay. âTell me,â she said.
âShe didnât come back,â he said.
âSince when?â
âFive days,â he answered.
âYouâve been alone all this time?â she asked.
He nodded.
âDid you go to school every day?â
He shook his head.
Mrs. Larkin gripped her hands together.
âClay, I think we have to do something about this. You know, your motherâs going to have a baby. She shouldnât be out there ⦠wandering the streets.â
A shaft of fear went through him. Like his hunger, the fear had been postponed until now. The two people he knew best in the world, who knew him best, were gone, hidden somewhere in the vast city.
He guessed Mrs. Larkin would get hold of someone like Miss You-canât-fool-me, and she would ask him questions he couldnât answer. Or worse, a policeman would take him to an unknown place, and when his mother came back, heâd be gone. Then all three of them would be lost to one another.
âSheâll be back,â he said in a whisper.
âIn the morning, Iâll make some phone calls,â Mrs. Larkin said. She was staring hard at him and she must have seen the fear he felt. âThere have to be phone calls,â she said, and reached out to pat his shoulder.
âSheâs gone away before,â he said quickly. âAnd Iâve got food. I just didnât eat it because ⦠there was a lost dog in the stairwell and I gave it to him.â That dog again, he thought, remembering the story heâd made up to tell his father. His alibi dog.
Mrs. Larkin went to adjust a pillow behind Jacobâs back, and he suddenly flung his arms around her and hid his face in her neck.
âThere, there â¦â she said absently, stroking his thin, stiff hair.
After a moment, she turned back to Clay. âYouâll have to be alone tonight,â she said. âUnless youâd like to bring in a blanket and sleep on the floor? Youâre welcome to do that, but Jacob makes a fearsome amount of noise at night and it would keep you awake.â She looked at Clay silently. Then, as though sheâd made up her mind, she said firmly, âNo, I wonât wait till morning. I ought to do it now. You could watch Jacob for me, and Iâll go down to the lobby and call the police to tell them your mama is missing.â
âShe isnât missing,â Clay protested. Why had he been so stupid as to tell her about the five days?
âYes, Iâll do that,â Mrs. Larkin said. âIt might take a while if thereâs a lot of people lined up for the phone. But itâs late, so maybe there wonât be. Itâs awful youâve been by yourself with all the trash doing their nasty things all over this place.â
âAll right, Iâll watch Jacob,â Clay said, feeling his breath coming fast. âBut Iâd like to get a book Iâm reading from my room. Iâll come right back.â
âOkay, Clay,â she said.
He could see she believed him and he felt bad about what he was going to do, almost as bad as he felt about the fear and uncertainty of it.
He went next door to the room. On the rack, next to the white blouse and blue skirt his mother wore when she had to go to agencies and sign papers so they could get help, was his beige corduroy jacket. He had never worn it around the hotel, because someone would have taken it from him. Next to the jacket, hanging by a loop on a hanger, was his old down jacket. He could hardly get into it anymore, it was so tight, and