holes in my shoes anymore.
Havana, 1963
The Glass Tower
EVER SINCE HE HAD ARRIVED in Miami, after the veritable odyssey of escaping his native country, noted Cuban author Alfredo Fuentes had not written a single line.
For some reason, since the day he arrivedâand it had already been five yearsâhe had found himself accepting all kinds of invitations to speak at conferences, to participate in cultural events or intellectual gatherings, and to attend literary cocktail and dinner parties where he was inevitably the guest of honor and, therefore, never given any time to eat, much less to think about his novelâor perhaps storyâthe one he had been carrying around in his head for years, and whose characters, Berta, Nicolás, DelfÃn, Daniel, and Olga, constantly vied for his attention, urging him to deal with their respective predicaments.
Bertaâs moral integrity, Nicolásâs firm stance against mediocrity, DelfÃnâs keen intelligence, Danielâs solitary spirit, and Olgaâs sweet and quiet wisdom not only clamored for the attention that he was unable to offer, they also reproached him constantly, Alfredo felt, because of the time he was spending with other people.
Most regrettable of all was that Alfredo hated those gatherings, but was incapable of refusing a gracious invitation (and what invitation isnât gracious?). He always accepted. Once there, he would be so brilliant and charming that he had earned a reputation, particularly among local writers, as a frivolous man who was something of a show-off.
On the other hand, if he were to turn down invitations to such gatherings at this point, everyone (including those who were critical of his facile eloquence) would consider it evidence of inferior breeding, selfishness, even a false sense of superiority. Thus, Alfredo found himself caught in an intricate web: he was well aware that if he continued to accept the endless flow of invitations, he would never write another word, and if he didnât, his prestige as a writer would soon fade into oblivion.
But it was also true that Alfredo Fuentes, rather than being at the center of those obliging crowds, would have much preferred to be alone in his small apartmentâthat is, alone with Olga, DelfÃn, Berta, Nicolás, and Daniel.
So pressing were his charactersâ appeals and so eager was he to respond that just a few hours earlier he had vowed to suspend all social activities and devote himself entirely to his novelâor story, since he didnât yet know exactly where all this might lead him.
Yes, tomorrow he was definitely going to resume his solitary and mysterious occupation. Tomorrow, because tonight it would be practically impossible for him not to attend the large party being given in his honor by the grande dame of the Cuban literary circles in Miami, Señora Gladys Pérez Campo, whom H. Puntilla had nicknamed âthe Haydée SantamarÃa of the exile community.â 2
This event, however, was not merely cultural, but also had a practical purpose. Gladys had promised the writer that she would lay the foundation, that very evening, for a publishing house that would print the manuscripts that he had, at great risk, smuggled out of Cuba. Alfredo, incidentally, didnât have a penny to his name and this, of course, could give him a tremendous financial boost, as well as help to promote the works of other important but still unknown writers less fortunate than Alfredo, who already had five books to his credit.
âThe publishing project will be a success,â Gladys had assured him on the phone. âThe most prominent people in Miami will support you. They will all be here tonight. I am expecting you at nine, without fail.â
At five to nine, Alfredo crossed the vast, manicured garden toward the main door of the Pérez Campo mansion. The scent of flowers swept over him in waves, and he could hear pleasant melodies emanating from the