easier to be brash and rude and keep people at arm’s length than it was to let them in. “—Happy Christmas.” I softened at the gentle smile on Johnny’s face. It was one I rarely saw and it made me realise I probably could be a little nicer to these people I called my friends; loosen up a little. Johnny was always there for us. As a friend he was the best — loyal, kind, funny. Maybe I should try to be more like him? Eww . Had I just thought that? “It’s kind of you. Sometimes you must even surprise yourself with such bursts of generosity. What’s inside?” I pulled the ribbon from the box and lifted the lid. “It’s just a bit of a laugh.” I held the gift — a t-shirt that matched Johnny’s — in front of me, my eyes taking in the words and image printed on the front. Dear Santa, All I want for Christmas is enough wine to get me through Christmas. Please. It was like he’d read my mind and despite the fact that it was an utterly ridiculous gift, it seemed to have achieved the desired result of making me lighten up. I felt rather more buoyant than I had two minutes ago. To know that there was one person in the world who had gone out of his way to make me smile made me feel warm inside. And a bit gooey. I never felt gooey. I folded the t-shirt and put it back in the box. Then, leaning over, I kissed Johnny’s cheek and gave his knee an affectionate rub. “Thanks. You didn’t have to go to the trouble, but thanks.” Johnny’s hand reached down and came to rest on top of my own. Suddenly, his eyes were gazing intensely into mine and I noticed flecks of grey within the vivid blue. I’d never paid that much attention to his eyes before. They were quite beautiful. “Is everything okay?” he asked, his stare reaching a place inside me I hadn’t known I possessed. I wished he’d stop. It was unnerving. “Why?” “You’re off your game. Normally, you’d have called me a degenerate fuckwit by now and hit me with my own present.” “Normally you’d be behaving like one.” Johnny looked around the room and raised his glass to our boss. “I’m on my best behaviour. New job and all that. What’s your excuse?” “I hate Christmas.” “Whoa. Big call. T’is the season to be jolly.” He cocked an ear to the music and chuckled at his own joke. Then he stilled. “Look, I know how shitful this time of year is for you. That’s why I got you the present. I thought it might give you a laugh.” That was one way of putting it. “But if I’d known I was gonna get such a positive reaction — as in lip action — I’d have bought you the matching bra and knickers. I can see you in red fur.” And there was the real Johnny Jones. “Don’t push your luck.” “So a shag’s out of the question, then?” His voice was no more than a deep and raspy whisper that sent tingles of desire through my body, unlocking a feeling I’d buried a long time back. His blue eyes began to twinkle with something rather dirty and lustful and for a minute — only a minute — I was almost tempted. Then I remembered it was Johnny. Lothario of the highest order. Man to never be trusted. I straightened and removed my hand from his knee. “You never let it go, do you? Tell me again how you managed to weasel your way into my workplace? There’s at least twenty big name law firms in town, and you choose mine.” “Maybe I couldn’t stay away from you any longer.” “Or maybe no one else would have you.” I snorted. Johnny shrugged. “Want another drink?” I watched as Johnny handed a couple of notes to the barman who took the glasses away and replaced them with filled fresh ones. Johnny’s hands were smooth and large and for a fleeting second my mind began to drift, wondering how they would feel on my body. Eww . Ugh . Stop! I was doing it again. I couldn’t be having lewd thoughts about Johnny’s hands. It was well, eww . Grabbing the t-shirt from the box, I jumped off my