your mom she didnât have to send you if she wanted to let me know she was back. She couldâve come herself.â
Molly said, âNo.â
âSame old stubborn Jen. And she used to say I was the one whoâd never change.â
âMy mom died,â Molly said. âRight before school started.â
She watched as Josh Cameron started to fall backward, before he caught himself at the last second. âNo,â he said. âOh, God, no.â
Then he said, âHow?â
âIt was cancer,â Molly said. âThey found out about it too late, thatâs what the doctors back in London told her. Then she came home, and the doctors here told her the exact same thing.â
He took her hands. âI am so sorry, kid. Thank you for coming out here to tell me, or I never wouldâve known. I mean, I didnât even know she got married over there.â
Molly said, âShe didnât, actually.â
âOh,â he said. He ran a hand through his hair, like he was stumped, and finally said, âWell, okay then.â
âItâs cool,â she said.
âWell, at least I understand why you didnât want some silly old signed ball. What you had to tell me was important.â
âThat wasnât it,â Molly said. âAt least not all of it.â
âI donât understand.â
Molly couldnât help it, she found herself smiling now, hearing her momâs voice inside her head like she was right there with them.
Which maybe she was.
The idea that she was being one of the things that kept Molly going.
âMom said there was a lot you didnât understand.â
âYeah,â he said. âShe did.â
He looked past Molly, like he was looking to some faraway place in the distance, and said, âShe used to say that a lot, as a matter of fact.â
âSee, I wasnât supposed to comeâ¦she kept saying it was a truly bad ideaâ¦â The words were spilling out of her now. âAnd if you know my momâwhat am I saying? You did know herâ¦you know what it was like when she said something was truly good or truly badâ¦â
âMolly,â he said, â what was this truly bad idea?â
âMe telling you that youâre my dad.â
CHAPTER 2
I n the distance, Molly noticed some of the other Celtics players coming out of the Sports Authority Training Center.
âNo,â Josh Cameron finally said to her.
He straightened up now, grunting a little as he did, as if doing that made his knees hurt.
âExcuse me?â she said, acting as if she hadnât heard him correctly, even though it was just one word in the air between them.
No.
âI donât believe you,â he said.
âItâs true!â Molly said, louder than she meant. âYou have to believe me.â
As soon as she heard the last part come out of her mouth, she knew she sounded as if she were six years old instead of twelve.
She put her hand on the back pocket of her jeans, where she had the letter her mom had written to her, one of the letters she had left for Molly to read after she was gone. Jen Parker, who had really wanted to be a writer. Who said that she was always better at writing her thoughts down than saying them out loud.
Molly had planned on showing him the letter, but now she wondered what the point was.
This wasnât going anything like sheâd planned.
âKeep your voice down,â Josh said, looking past her to where some of his teammates, one of them the big Chinese rookie, Ming Cho, were getting into their own Navigator-type cars.
âIâm sorry,â Molly said.
Then thought to herself, Youâre sorry? You tell him what you just told him and he basically calls you a liar and then tells you to shut up, like heâs a teacher in class, and youâre the one whoâs supposed to apologize?
Who are you, Barbie?
Forget sounding six. She sounded like the