of charismatic condescension he always gets away with because he knows I love him like a father. Uncle. Fatherly uncle. Whatever. I let it slide. Again.
âNothing.â
âGood.â He ignores my blatant lie. âSee you at three . . . ish.â
âYou have a two-oâclock reading, and anyway, I have capoeira at three and I really hate being late.â
âWhoâs the reading for?â
âEliades.â
âOh fuck. Heâs always coming with some bullshit. Keep him entertained till I get there.â
âIâm not entertaining.â
âJust tell him Iâll be a little late.â
âBut . . .â
The line goes dead.
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Ishigu was a third-degree master of Shumanjo Levitating Robot fighting style, but Sunnyside Academy didnât have that as an after-school option, so Giovanni took kenpo instead. Gio also was a lead alto in glee club, treasurer of the debate team, assistant editor at the school newspaper, and president/founding member of the Amiri Baraka Drama Club. Each met on a different day of the week, which I always took to be a special scheduling miracle devised solely to please my overachieving cousinâbut it was really just a coincidence.
âWhy you still wearing your tutu?â Gio narrowed his eyes at me.
âBecause Iâm a ballerina,â I informed him.
âBallet is so girly.â
I matched his sneer with one of my own. âYou do ballet and youâre a boy.â
âIâm not just a boy.â Gioâs hands extended to either side, palms out, like Ishigu does when heâs getting ready to levitate. âIâm the baddest boy in town, bitches.â
I was laughing, but then I stopped. âDonât call me a bitch.â Both my fists found my hips, and I frowned, creasing my brow to show I wasnât kidding.
âI didnât mean you.â The apology was sincere. âI meant it universally. All the bitches in the universe! Anyway, itâs not a bad word if you say it right.â
âItâs not?â We started walking again all through the quiet suburbs of eastern Queens. When Gio was with me, I could ignore the creeping sensation that I donât belong, I donât belong; no matter where I am, I donât belong.
âShh . . . We on a mission.â
âWhere we going?â Iâd never been to this neighborhood before. Maybe driven past once or twice with my dad, but it was all white folks, and the feeling of
donât belong, donât belong
hung heavy in the air, like all the molecules wanted me to leave too. But I knew I was safe. Gioâd been studying kenpo since he was my age and he was a brown belt and not to be trifled with.
âItâs a secret mission.â
âBut where we going?â
âIf I tell you, it wonât be a . . .â I made the face that I knew gets him, the one that I used to make right before I cried. He caved. âFine. But donât tell
anybody.
â He lowered his voice to such a shrill whisper on the word âanybodyâ that a little spittle escaped and he had to wipe his mouth. âWeâre going to see if Jeremyâs okay.â
I rolled my eyes. For three weeks, all Iâd heard about was Jeremy Fern. Would Jeremy like this red leather jacket? Does he read
Ishigu
too? What kind of cigarettes would Jeremy smoke? If Jeremy were a crayon, what color would he be? (Yes, no, Virginia Slims, and plain olâ white, respectively, but who was listening?) The angle of Jeremyâs chin: divine architecture; the perfection of his frown when he was thinking about a math problem; the timbre of his voice: angelic. Jeremy the Brave, bringing in articles about oil drilling in Antarctica for social studies. Jeremy the Agile, bounding effortlessly across the gym in tights for his
Swan Lake
solo. Jeremy the Cryptic, explaining his theory of how all six
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