away at her insides. He could see her so clearly, it was as if she stood before him again.
Unlike Abigailâs cool, fair beauty and striking height, Mary was small and angular with an abundance of red hair which she squashed beneath a disreputable felt hat. Freckles dusted her nose, and wide blue eyes and dark lashes stared back at him as she wrestled to still the black gelding dancing beneath her. Sheâd been furious, that first time theyâd faced one another after her return to Churinga. The fences were down and her mob had got mixed in with his.
He smiled as he remembered the Irish temper of her. The way her eyes flashed and she tossed her head as she yelled into his face. It had taken the best part of a week to sort the mobs out and repair the fences, and by that time they had called an uneasy truce that hadnât quite become a friendship.
âWhatâs so funny, Dad?â
Andrewâs voice dispelled the memories and Ethan dragged himself back to the present. âI donât think we need worry too much about Matilda. If sheâs anything like her mother, then itâs Merv we should feel sorry for.â
âYou liked Mary, didnât you? How come you neverâ¦?â
âShe was another manâs wife,â he snapped.
Andrew whistled. âStrewth! I did touch a nerve, didnât I?â
Ethan sighed as he remembered the time heâd had his chance and lost it. âIf things had been different, then whoâs to say what might have been? If Mervyn hadnât come back so crippled from Gallipoli thenâ¦â
He let the unfinished sentence hang between them as the sights and sounds of war intruded into his mind. They still gave him nightmares, even after six years, but he was one of the lucky ones. Mervyn had finally been released from hospital almost two years after the war was over but was a different man from the one whoâd eagerly caught the train in 1916. Gone was the lazy smile and careless charm and in their place was a shambling wreck who, after a long convalescence, found relief only in a bottle.
It was a poor substitute so far as his wife was concerned, Ethan thought. And Iâm to blame, lord help me. He pulled his thoughts together. At least all the time Merv was bed-ridden she could keep an eye on her husbandâs drinking. But once he was up and back on a horse, he would disappear for weeks on end, leaving Mary to cope with the running of the station. Sheâd been tougher than heâd thought, and although his plans had come to nothing, Ethan couldnât help but respect her strength.
âI admired her, yes. She did the best she could in a tough situation. Although she rarely asked for help, I tried to ease things the best I could for her.â He lit a cheroot and opened up the wool accounts book. There was work to be done and half the day had already been wasted.
Andrew unhooked his leg from the arm of the chair and sat forward. âIf Merv runs up many more debts, Matilda wonât have an inheritance. We could always make her an offer in a couple of yearsâ time and get the land cheap.â
Ethan smiled around his cigar. âI plan on getting it free, son. No point in paying for something when you donât have to.â
Andrew cocked his head, a smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. âHow? Matildaâs trust is hard won. Sheâs not going to just give it away.â
Ethan tapped the side of his nose. âIâve got plans, son. But patience is called for, and I donât want you shooting your mouth off.â
Andrew was about to speak when his father interrupted. âYou leave it to me and I guarantee Churinga will be ours within the next five years.â
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Matilda was restless. The silence in the house was heavy and she knew her father would soon return. He never disappeared for more than a couple of weeks at a time, and heâd been gone that long