seriously. I mean it. Youâre really, really pretty.â
Over his shoulder, I see my mom watching us with a scowl. This is probably a mistake, I realize, but I feel reckless tonight. Bold. Like I want to break some rules or something.
Which is totally out of character for me. Iâve always played by the rules, performed my role to perfectionâdutiful daughter, devoted sister, straight-A student, cocaptain of the cheerleading squad. I do exactly whatâs expected of me, live the life my parents have imagined for me. Sometimes I wonder who the real Jemma Cafferty isâif Iâll ever find her.
If I want to.
âThanks,â I murmur. âYou donât look so bad yourself.â
âLetâs go somewhere and talk,â he says, his voice low. Releasing my waist, he reaches for my hand and tugs me toward the edge of the dance floor.
âI donât think thatâs such a good idea,â I say. Still, I follow him. My heart is pounding against my ribs as we weave our way through the crowd, toward the back of the house.
âI meant what I said,â he tells me as soon as we find ourselves alone. âYou really do look pretty tonight. I mean, you always do. But especially now.â He sways a little, and I reach out to steady him.
âYou okay?â I ask. Heâs definitely a little drunk.
âYeah. I really, really wanna kiss you right now.â
âOh yeah?â I ask.
He nods. âYeah.â He reaches for my hand and pulls me into the shadows, pressing me roughly against the trunk of a tree. I donât resist, not even when his lips find mine.
His kiss is surprisingly gentleâalmost tentative. I want more. Need more. I open my mouth against his, feeling dangerously light-headed as his hands skim up my sides, drawing gooseflesh in their wake.
I draw him closer, till the entire length of his body is pressed against mine. Itâs been so long since Iâve been kissed, I realize with a start. Too long.
And now Patrick is here, and he smells so goodâlikecologne and the outdoors. His breath is warm against my skin, his kisses featherlight. I hardly notice it when he hooks his thumbs under my dress straps and slides them down, baring my shoulders.
âDude, there you are!â a voice calls out. Mason. Shit .
I duck out from under Patrickâs arms.
âOh, hey, Jemma,â Mason says with a knowing grin. âDidnât mean to interrupt.â
âGreat timing, man,â Patrick mutters.
Mason holds both hands up in surrender. âSorry. Iâll just let you two get back toââ
âNo, weâre done.â My cheeks are flaming as I tug up my straps and brush off my backside, hoping the bark didnât rip the delicate tulle.
âAww, câmon, Jem,â Patrick says. âDonât run off like this.â He looks genuinely hurt, his hazel eyes slightly unfocused.
I shake my head. âIâve got to go find Morgan and Lucy. Iâll catch you later, okay?â I add, feeling guilty now. I hurry off, trying to ignore what sounds like the two guys slapping a high five behind me.
Great. Just great.
âWhat the hell?â Lucy asks, as soon as I find her and Morgan back by the buffet, piling dessert onto their plates. âDid you really just run off to hook up with Patrick? Because thatâs what it looked like.â
âWhatâs this in your hair?â Morganâs fingers brush against the back of my head. She pulls out a prickly twig and holds it up, examining it with drawn brows.
âThere was no hooking up,â I protest, taking the twig and dropping it to the ground. âWe . . . kissed, thatâs all. And Mason caught us, so give it about five minutes and everyone here will know. Shit.â
âSeriously?â Lucy asks, her voice laced with incredulity. âWhy on earth would you kiss Patrick Hughes?â
âI have no idea. I