awake?â
âItâs Papa,â sheâd said simply. She moved out of the doorway and into the light. Her eyes were dark-circled and red-rimmed. âI canât do anything, but I canât sleep, either.â
Heâd held out his arms to her, and sheâd come to him, drooping into his embrace like an exhausted bird into its nest.
:Uncle Van â: Sheâd Mindtouched him immediately, and he could sense thoughts seething behind the ones she Sent. :Uncle Van, itâs not just Papa. I have a question. And I donât know if youâre going to like it or not, but I have to ask you, becauseâbecause I need to know the answer.:
Heâd smoothed her hair back off her forehead. :lâve never lied to you, and Iâve never put you off, sweetling,: heâd replied. : Even when you asked uncomfortable questions. Go ahead.:
She took a deep breath and shook off his hands. :Papa isnât my real father, is he? You are.:
Heâd had less of a shock from mage-lightning. And heâd answered without thinking. :Iâyes â butâ:
Sheâd thrown her arms around his neck and clung to him, not saying anything, simply radiating relief.
Reliefâand an odd, subdued joy.
He blinked again, and touched her mind, tentatively. :Sweetling? Doâ.
:Iâm glad,: she said. And let him fully into her mind. He saw her fearsâthat she would become sick, as Randale had. Her puzzlement at some odd things sheâd overheard her mother sayâand the strange evasions Shavri had given instead of replies. The frustration when she sensed she wasnât being told the truth. The bewilderment as she tried to fathom questions that became mystery. And the love she had for him. A love she now felt free to offer him, like a gift.
Perhaps it was that last that surprised him the most. :You donât mind?: he asked, incredulously. He could hardly believe it. Like many youngsters in adolescence, sheâd been a little touchy around him of late. Heâd assumed that it was because she felt uncomfortable around himâand in truth, heâd expected it. Jisa knew what he was, that he was shaych, and what that meant, at least insofar as understanding that he preferred men as close companions. Neither he nor her parents had seen any point in trying to hide that from her; sheâd always been a precocious child, as evidenced by this little surprise. :You really donât mind?: he repeated, dazed.
âWhy should I mind?â she asked aloud, and hugged him harder. âJustâtell me why? Why isnât Papa my fatherâand why is it you?â
So he had, as simply and clearly as he could. She might have been barely over twelve, but sheâd taken in his words with the understanding of someone much older.
She left him amazed.
Sheâd finally gone off to her bedâbut had sent him back to his treaty both bewildered and flattered, that she admired him so very much....
And loved him so very much.
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She still loved him, admired him, and trusted him; sometimes she trusted him more than her âparents.â Certainly she confided more in him than in Shavri.
He shook his head a little, and continued down the cobbled path that would lead him eventually to the door out of the garden. Poor Jisa. Shavri leans on her as if she were an adultâdepends on her for so muchâit hardly seems fair. Then again, maybe I should envy the little minx. I still canât get my parents to think of me as an adult.
All too soon he came to the end of the path. Buried in a tangle of hedges and vines was the chipped, green-painted door. He opened it, and stepped into the darkened hallway of the Queenâs suite.
The rooms were just as neglected as the garden had been; dark, full of dusty furniture, and with a faint ghost of Elspethâs violet perfume still hanging in the air. Shavri had never felt comfortable here, and Randale had deemed it politic (after much