everything!
Despite the disgusting ending to my 10th birthday party it had otherwise been a perfect day. Much like the first 10 years of my life had been. Occasionally Tyler would show up and knock over my cake or throw up on my dress, but the rest of the time I was exceptionally happy. I was surrounded by people who loved me and I couldn’t have asked for anything more. I had always felt lucky to have so many wonderful people in my life, but it wasn’t until I was faced with losing what meant most to me that I really appreciated how lucky I was.
One night as I made my way down the corridor towards my parent’s bedroom I overheard my mom sobbing. Instantly I froze not sure how to react. I’d never heard her cry before.
“Oh, Michael.” Her voice was muffled and I crept a few steps forward to peer through the bedroom door. My parents sat on the edge of the bed, my dad had his arm around Mom as she cried into his shoulder.
“It’s all going to work out Katherine, Fate has a way of working these things out. We just have to have faith and take a chance.”
“Those would make good names.” My mother murmured, “Faith or Chance.” and it sounded like she laughed a little.
I strained closer to see her face, still trying to gauge the situation. She was smiling up at my father now.
What could possibly be going on that would have my mother crying and smiling at the same time? And what was she saying about names?
“What are we going to do?” my mom sighed, her smile fading again.
“We’re going to have a baby.” My dad replied and for some reason they both started laughing.
A baby?
I took several involuntary steps forward as I tried to process what I’d just heard.
“Oh Destiny!” my mom exclaimed when she saw me. Quickly she wiped the tears from her cheeks and smiled brightly. She extended her arms to me and instinctively I ran to her burying my face in her hair. Tears of confusion sprang into my eyes before I could stop them.
“There, there.” My mother soothed rocking me and stroking my head “What’s wrong Sweetheart?”
“You were crying.”
“Oh, Sweetheart, don’t worry about me. I’m fine. See.” She pushed me out at arm’s length to look me in the face and she smiled comfortingly at me. The ache in my heart eased a little.
“We have some great news, Destiny.” My dad said “We’re going to have another baby. You’re going to be a big sister!”
The words finally sunk in and I looked back at my mom, she was still smiling cheerfully at me.
“But I thought you couldn’t? I mean didn’t you say that the doctors said you couldn’t?” I asked my mom, beginning to tremble as the panic sunk in.
I remembered her telling me the story of how difficult her labor had been with me; she’d almost died and had been told not to have any more children.
“Oh it’s going to be fine!” my mom exclaimed a little too cheerfully.
“Then why were you crying?” I was only 10, but I wasn’t stupid.
Mom’s shoulders slumped a little and her smile wavered.
“There is a risk Destiny.” My mother said seriously, all false cheeriness gone from her voice. “But there’s also a chance that everything will go fine.” She assured me trying to smile again.
“What kind of risk?” I asked, my hands were visibly shaking now. I couldn’t even think about the possibility of losing my mother, she was everything to me and to my dad. I looked over at him desperately. He was smiling too, but his eyes were wary.
“Destiny, your Mom is going to be fine. Her doctor knows all about her medical history, he’ll know how to take care of her.” It almost sounded like he was trying to convince himself by saying it out loud.
I buried my face back against my mom’s chest and she hugged me tightly. I felt Dad’s arm come around us both and I let myself cry. Even at 10 I realized how much I could lose. I had never before imagined it was possible to lose my mother, but suddenly she seemed so fragile