he’s so cute! So ooo not my usual type. You know me, I usually go for the bad boys, but this guy is clean cut and he was wearing a button down shirt for the love of God. But he was super nice and he was teaching his little brother to skate!” “That’s great Am. I’m happy for you. When are you going out?” “Friday night. He’s taking me to a party. I don’t know where.” “Cool. Ok, I gotta go get a shower and get into bed.” Amber’s phone rang and she picked it up without even saying a word to me. That girl was long gone already. I finished eating and cleaned up the kitchen. Amber had gone into her room with her phone attached. And for the second time today I thought about Cassandra and Corey as I readied myself for bed. Cassandra was even more perfect than I had been. And Corey, he always made sure that everything ‘looked’ right. We didn’t kiss or hold hands in public. We didn’t even sit by each other at lunch. He said just because we were together didn’t mean we had to flaunt it. But as soon as he broke it off with me for being ‘too nice’ he and Cassandra were all over each other. They practically made out in front of everyone. And the funny thing was, I hated who I was. I hated who I was around them. And they didn’t want me ? That reminds me. Soon I’m going hot pink on my hair. Yeah, like neon pink.
Two mornings later Amber and I went to class together. It was math and I sucked at it and so did she. We tried to help each other but it was like the blind leading the lame. And I was the lame part. We got breakfast after math in the Union. While I was paying for mine, I heard a squeal. Amber was hugging some guy who I assumed was Dylan in the middle of the cafeteria. I groaned. I loved the girl, but she went through guys like most people go through bars of soap. I walked over and smiled at her. I was happy for her, I was. I usually ran guys off with my weird hair and tattoos, not to mention guys just didn’t like me. She quickly introduced me to Dylan who was very polite and a little overly charming. But I was suspicious of every guy. I ate while Amber and Dylan went on and on about the part y they were going to Friday night. They invited me, but I passed. We had a bout the next day and I didn’t want to be tired. That’s the excuse I used. I actually didn’t enjoy being around a bunch of drunk guys. Imagine that. I got through eating and they barely noticed that I had left. When Amber was in love, and it happened often, she was all in. And I was mostly forgotten. I walked to American Lit. I was always late, but I hated to get there early and pick a seat. It gave me the creeps. So I just got there a little late and picked whatever seat was left. I walked in and the only seat left was three rows up and on the right side. I sat and prepared to make myself listen to the professor. He had some interesting things to say about Steinbeck, but you had to make yourself stay awake to catch them. He stopped talking to go into the hall for some water. Everyone started talking as soon as he left the classroom. I reached into my bag to get some gum and when my eyes drifted back I saw that the guy in the aisle next to mine was looking at me. I silently offered him some gum and he put his hands out to catch it. I chucked it at him and he caught it effortlessly. He smiled at me and it was just breathtaking. Then I remembered that he was the guy I saw sitting at the table the other day at the