walked into the hospital room.
He knew as soon as they were out of Coach John Fisherâs car and through the emergency room entrance at Mount Auburn Hospital.
There were other firefighters in the waiting room, some of them still in their gear and uniforms. But the one he focused on was the man heâd thought of as Uncle Brendan his whole life.
You always heard grown-ups saying,
Hey, you look like you just lost your best friend
. Uncle Brendan, in his bunker gear pants and his suspenders, looked like heâd lost his best friend. And Tommy knew it must be true.
He felt his sister grip his hand even harder. Emily hadnât said a word since theyâd gotten into Coach Fisherâs backseat. She hadnât cried either. Sheâd just held Tommyâs hand and stared at him when she wasnât staring straight ahead. Sheâd released his hand briefly when theyâd gone through the double doors. She was holding on for dear life, even though Tommy knew there was no emergency now inside this hospital.
He knew their dad was dead even if his little sister didnât.
The two of them hung back near the doors theyâd just come through, almost like they were on the outside looking in. Tommy saw a tall, older man approach his mom. He heard somebody refer to the man as the âcommissioner.â He wasnât in uniformâmaybe thereâd been no time for that after heâd received
the call
. He was wearing a short-sleeved shirt and khaki pants. He held on to his momâs hand as he spoke to her, Tommy unable to hear what he was saying.
Then his mom was hugging Uncle Brendan. She wasnât crying now. Tommy knew how tough his mom was when she had to be, how his dad always said that, even though he put out fires for a living, she was the toughest one in the family. Maybe sheâd just decided she wasnât going to cry in front of the fire commissioner and his crew. Maybe she thought that was something Patrick Gallagherâs wife, his high school sweetheart, shouldnât do, even in a moment like this.
Now Tommyâs mom and Uncle Brendan walked across the emergency room lobby to where Tommy and Emily were standing, Tommy struck by how loud Uncle Brendanâs wide yellow pants sounded as his legs rubbed up against each other.
Tommyâs mom pulled him and Emily toward her, gripping them like she was holding on for dear life. She looked them in the eyes and said, âHeâs gone.â
Tommy wasnât going to cry, either. Not because the fire commissioner was here, or even Uncle Brendan. He just wasnât going to do it. He was Patrick Gallagherâs kid. Toughness ran in the family. Tommy looked at his sister when they all pulled back. Shewasnât crying, either. Her eyes had just gotten bigger. She wasnât looking at their mom. She was looking at Tommy. Just staring at her big brother, like she was searching for answers.
Tommy had none.
âHe did everything he could,â Brendan said. âHe did everything anybody could have done. And more.â He swallowed and said, âThe fire was just too big this time.â
Tommy nodded. Still holding back tears.
âHeâs upstairs,â his mom said. âIâm going up to see him. You two can stay here with Uncle Brendan.â
âIâm going,â Tommy said. He looked down at his sister, who was still looking at him. She nodded, and finally spoke.
âIâm going with Tommy,â Emily said.
As they stepped into the elevator Brendan said, âYour dad was a hero today.â
Tommy said, âHeâs always been a hero.â
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There were more firemen standing around when they got out of the elevator. Tommy recognized the ones from his dad and Uncle Brendanâs crew. They formed two lines now, and saluted Tommy, his mom, and his sister as the Gallaghers walked between them.
At the very end of the line was Father Walters, the pastor