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anything any more. I struggled into a squatting position, then very slowly stood up. Tried to stand up. My head bumped against a roof. It must be just under five foot high. I sat down again, panting with the effort.
    At least I could move my body. Wriggle and hump along, like a snake in the dust. But I hardly dared. I had the sense that I was somewhere up high. When he came into the room, he was underneath me. The footsteps and his voice came from down below. He climbed to get at me.
    I stretched my feet in one direction and felt only the floor. I swivelled painfully around, my T-shirt riding up and bare skin on my back scraping along the roughness beneath me. I stretched my feet. Floor. I humped forward. Slowly. Feet feeling. Then not feeling—not feeling the hardness underneath. Stretched over a space, a blank. Nothing underneath. I lay down and moved forward again, bit by bit. Legs hanging over, bent at the knee. If I sat up now, I’d be sitting over a fall, a cliff. My breath juddered in my chest with panic. I started shifting backwards. My back hurt. My head crashed and banged. I kept wriggling and scraping backwards until I was pressed up against a wall.
    I sat up. I pressed my bound hands against the wall. Damp coarse brick against my fingertips.
    I shuffled upright along the wall in one direction, until I met the corner. Then in the other direction, my muscles burning with the effort. It must be about ten feet wide. Ten feet wide and four feet deep.
    It was hard to think clearly because the pain in my head kept getting in the way. Was it a bang? A scrape? Something in my brain?
    I was shivering with cold. I had to keep thinking, keep my mind busy, keep it off things. I had been kidnapped in some way. I was being held against my will. Why did kidnaps happen? To take hostages, for money or for a political reason. My total wealth, once credit card and storecard debts were deducted, amounted to about two thousand pounds, half of it bound up in my rusty old car. As for politics, I was a working-environment consultant, not an ambassador. But then I didn’t remember anything. I could be in South America, now, or Lebanon. Except that the voice was clearly English, southern English as far as I could tell from the soft, thick whisper.
    So what other reasons were there? I had argued myself towards an area where everything looked really, really bad. I felt tears bubbling up in my eyes. Calm down. Calm down. I mustn’t get all snotty, blocked up.
    He hadn’t killed me. That was a good sign. Except it wasn’t necessarily all that good a sign—in the long run it might be a bad sign in a way that made me feel sick even to think about. But it was all I had. I flexed my muscles very gently. I couldn’t move. I didn’t know where I was. I didn’t know where I’d been captured, or when, or how. Or for what reason. I couldn’t see anything. I didn’t even know anything about the room I was lying in. It felt damp. Maybe it was underground or in a shed. I didn’t know anything about the man. Or men. Or people. He was probably close by. I didn’t know if I knew him. I didn’t know what he looked like.
    That might be useful. If I could identify him, he might … Well, that might be worse. Professional kidnappers wore hoods so that the hostage never saw them. Putting a hood over my head might be the same thing, the other way round. And he was doing something to his voice, muffling it somehow, so that he didn’t sound like a human at all. It might even be that he was planning to hold me for just a little while and let me go. He could dump me in some other part of London and it would be impossible for me ever to find him again. I would know nothing—nothing at all. That was the first bit of remotely good news.
    I had no idea how long I had been here but at the very outside it couldn’t be more than three days, maybe even two. I felt dreadful but I didn’t feel especially weak. I felt hungry but not ill with hunger. Maybe two