thoughts.
âIn?â
Logan sighed. âThe volleyball game tonight. Michael got the rec center and everything.â
âI donâtââ
âBefore you finish that, remember, you promised to play tonight.â
He had, but somehow his heart wasnât in it. He sighed. âRight. Volleyball.â
Logan nodded. âYouâll be there?â
âIâll be there,â he replied. In body. But he had a feeling his mind would be someplace else.
* * *
âEzra, is that you?â
âYeah, Mom.â He tossed his truck keys onto the table by the front door and ran a hand over the back of his neck. He felt antsy and strange, like he was waiting for something to happen but he didnât know what.
âDid you have a good day at the market?â she called again, most likely from the kitchen. It seemed she spent a lot of time these days looking out the back window over the small table just off from the breakfast nook. She said she liked to watch the animals play and walk about in the bright winter sun, but he had a feeling it was more than that. From her favorite perch she could see half the ranch and the road that ran in front of it. Was she expecting someone to come?
He shook his head as she rolled her wheelchair into the living room. She caught sight of him and he stopped. âWhat?â she asked.
âNothing.â He bent to kiss her cheek. He never went a day without showing his affection. She was everything to him. All he had left in this world.
Sort of.
âMichael called,â she said. âHe wanted to remind you about the volleyball game tonight.â
He was going to get no peace in the matter. Like it or not, he had to go. Well, that wasnât exactly right. It wasnât that he didnât like it. There was so much that needed to be done at the ranch that he hated taking time out for games.
âAre you going?â Mom asked. It was as if she knew his thoughts.
Ever since his dad had left, his mother had been a little more wrapped up in herself. It was understandable, really, but that didnât mean Ezra had to like it. But when it came to him, she seemed to have a sixth sense, some sort of direct line to his thoughts and emotions. She didnât always use it, but he knew it was there.
âOf course.â What else could he say?
Mom smiled. âGood. You donât get out enough.â
He might not get out enough, but she didnât get out at all. Where was the justice in that?
* * *
Saturday morning dawned much like Friday had, bright and sunny and chilly. Such was to be expected of January in Oklahoma.
Ezra started out to the barn for his morning chores, not at all surprised when he saw his cousin pull into the drive.
âGood morning.â He waved to Logan, who pulled his older-model Ford F-150 onto the side yard and cut the engine.
âHey,â he called in return. âWhat brings you out on this fine Saturday morning?â He asked the question, but he knew. It was sort of a game they played. Every three or four days, Logan would come out to the ranch and offer his help. Ezra would insist that he didnât need it and would send Logan on his way.
âI thought I might come by this morning and give you a hand.â Logan shut his truck door and pulled a pair of work gloves from his back pocket.
That was a new part of their dance. Ezra had never known him to bring gloves.
âNo need. Iâve got it all under control.â
âHuh-uh. Thatâs what I thought youâd say.â But instead of getting back into his truck, Logan continued toward the barn.
Ezra hustled to catch up. âYou arenât staying. Thereâs no need.â
âThatâs exactly what I thought you would say.â
âThen Iâll see you later.â Help was the last thing he wanted. He had everything under control. He didnât need outside assistance. He didnât want it.
Like a calf