blocks, without talking to each other.
There was nothing to say.
chapter 4
All that night, awake or asleep, I kept seeing the womanâs face. She and her children probably lived in one horrible little room filled with cockroaches, which scuttled under the bed and kept them awake all night. And the hallways were filled with strange, lurking people, with gray faces, making odd noises. And the children cried a lot because their stomachs were empty. It must be terrible to be really hungry. And to have no money to buy food. Sometimes, when Iâm hungry after school, I try to imagine how Iâd feel if there were no food in the house and no prospect of any. I canât imagine what itâs really like, but I try.
So I gave her eighty cents. Big deal. I was ashamed of giving her so little, even though it was all I had.
In the morning I leaned against the sink and drank my orange juice and watched my mother getting ready to go out. This was her day to work at the hospital thrift shop. They were pricing donations today, she told me, to prepare for the grand opening next week.
âIf I see a dress that might suit you,â she told me, âIâll bring it home with me. We get some very nice things there.â
âA secondhand dress for the Rainbow Room?â I tried not to sound snotty. And failed. My mother is a scrounge. She can always find a way to beat the high cost of living. My father says she works miracles, but I wish she wouldnât try to work one on me.
My mother shot me a dark look. âThere are plenty of people who would be glad to be given some secondhand things,â she reminded me. âThere are also people who never wear anything but other peopleâs castoffs. Donât be a snob.â
After my mother had given me a cool cheek-brush in farewell and told me to put some potatoes on to boil for potato salad, I was alone. Teddy had gone to day camp. So there I was, sitting in the kitchen, alone with the clicking refrigerator, the dripping faucet, and myself. Being by yourself isnât always easy, especially if yourself turns out to be a not-so-nice person.
Iâve gotten much more introspective since Iâve known Al. Before she came into my life, I was a happy-go-lucky slob. Now I tend to brood, though not nearly as much as she does. Al says knowing me has made her much more laid back than she used to be. I guess weâre good for each other, the way friends should be.
When you come right down to it, though, Iâll be thirteen in September and what have I got to show for it?
Nada , as Al would say.
Then Polly called. Boy, was I glad to hear her cheerful little voice!
âYou sound like youâve lost your last friend,â Polly told me. âAnd you havenât. Here I am.â
She asked me and Al over for supper. âIâm making chicken cacciatore tonight,â Polly said. âThe spécialité de la maison.â Polly is a star cook. Sheâs going to be a chef and have her own restaurant when sheâs eighteen.
âSounds good,â I said. Polly and Al and I are all very different. Polly stayed at our apartment when her parents went to Africa, and Al got a little uptight. Twoâs company, threeâs a crowd, as my mother says in her infinite wisdom. And sheâs right. Al flailed around awhile, then she got over whatever was bugging her, and now we all get along fine. We laugh a lot. Mr. Richards said a good laugh was good for the soul. He also was right.
Mr. Richards died eight months ago. He was the assistant super in our building. He was also our friend. Not a day goes by but that something he said or did doesnât remind us of him.
âYou go,â Al said when I told her Polly had invited us. âIâm always horning in. Pollyâs your friend, after all.â
âDonât be a klutz,â I told her. âSheâs your friend, too. Polly doesnât ask anyone she doesnât like. You