behin d — “ Hurry ,” he yell s— I recall my mo m’ s rule. Do n’ t bring home no damn LEOs. What am I doing lusting after that cop? Everyone in my family hates cops. “ I ca n’ t go meet those two ,” I say, getting a dizzying whiff of Oma r’ s bleachy bar rag over my shoulder. “ I just . . . ca n’ t . ”
“ You want to keep your job ? ”
Stupid question. “ O.J., what do the LEOs want with me ? ”
“ Get moving. Go find out . ”
“ Keep that bar rag to yourself ,” I growl.
I like to speculate about what brings O.J. from Punjab to the U.S. H e’ s secretive, does n’ t like people prying. Fortunately, h e’ s got a warped sense of humor, which Ang and I love. H e’ s always lecturing us ,“ You girls dress like in a harem, please. Men love . ” Being able to dance barefoo t— as O.J. imagines harem girls d o— is the reason I took this job, that and the money. Dancing barefoot helps protect my foot. One misstep and my ankle will g o— pop! Just like that, and ther e’ ll go my dream. Instead of entering the Rockette s ’ jump-the-line competition, I’ ll be back in surgery.
“ I must apologize, but please wear no tops when you dance ,” O.J. drills, when Angie and I show up bleary-eyed for his stupid team meetings to protest dancing topless. “ Not even pastries ,” he says, misusing the ter m“ pastries ,” but remaining firm, the deep gray sockets beneath his eyes like papery elephant skin. I think he hides a secret gangsta life, but Ang is n’ t afraid of him, or anyone. Every time she sees him, she teases ,“ O.J., would you like coffee with you r— pasties ? ”
With O.J. clamoring on my heels, I jerk to a stop at the step s ’ bottom. “ I ca n’t —”
“ Hurry ,” he says, giving me another nudge.
“ Al right ,” I say, stalling in the icy strobe light s ’ blinding glare. This is n’ t like resting my whiney foot and hanging on the banana. I ca n’ t stand around guessing why the LEOs are here. I know . My heart flip-flops. Robin . Has he started using again ? My brothe r’ s a recovering meth addict and ex-dealer. Any parole violations and h e’ s back in prison. He called me this morning. “ Lainey ,” he said ,“I’ m gonna be gone for a little while. Do n’ t tell anyone . ”
“ But Rob, you got an appointment with your P O —”
“ Do n’ t worry so fucki n ’ much. I’ ll talk to her . ”
“ Yo u’ re in trouble ,”I’ d whined. “ I can help. Please tell me where you are . ”
Punkass. He never responds when I plead. I’ d closed my eyes and imagined explaining Robi n’ s absence to Sam Duggins, his parole officer, the PO I cal l“ Hellgirl . ”
You seen Robin Colby?
Nope.
H e’ s in parole violation. Cough him up, Miss Colby, or I’ ll bust you, too.
Yeah, right, Hellgirl. I’ ll roll over on my brother when pigs freaki n ’ fly.
“ Trust me ,‘ Lainey ,” Robin had begged. “ You gotta trust me . ”
Last time I saw him was Monday, before I left for class. Since he wo n’ t tell me where he is, I’ ve been worried h e’ s using, or worse, that h e’ s dealing again. I do n’ t want him going back to prison. It would kill me.
“ Ouch ! ” A splinter from the dance floor jabs the sole of my bare foot, jolting my mind back from Robi n’ s problem to my own. Recalling the LEO, I touch my face and worry stupidly about my makeup, about what a zombie I must appear. The LEOs give me a joint visual frisk, the female gawking like sh e’ s never seen an exotic dancer, the hot Viking leader signaling me with a commanding nod toward the D J’ s table. Across the room, our gazes lock. Putting on my most sullen face, I glare back. You want I should trot over to you, all nice and sweet like, and rat out my brother? Is that what you want?
I’ m used to men gawking, but when his challenging
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