until I reach my most probable form which is probably where I am now, living in an apartment with Einstein.â So I decided to get un-isolated. And thatâs when Bradley picked me up in the library and I thought, âThis must be it. Physics has brought us together.â I mean, his timing was so perfect. It was so logical.â
Tina shook her head. âNo wonder youâre so screwed up. Life is not logical, and marriage certainly isnât. Stop analyzing things so much. Try impulse for a change.â
âI was impulsive once. I married Bradley after Iâd only known him two months.â Lucy felt a twinge of shame even as she said the words. Sheâd been stupid. Really stupid. âSo Iâm not a fan of impulse anymore. And, no offense, but I donât see impulse doing much for you.â
Tina smiled. âIâve got twelve and a half million dollars, darling. And what have you got? A moth-eaten house and custody of three dogs. Impulse has done more for me than logic has for you. Just look at you. Do you ever have any fun?â
âFun?â Lucyâs eyes went to the dark-haired man across the room. âFun.â She shifted her gaze back to Tina and picked up her fork to attack her salad again. âI donât think Iâm the fun type.â
âWell, I think youâre taking life too seriously. Itâs time you cut loose. Do something wild. Something spontaneous.â
Lucy frowned at her. âI told you. I did something spontaneous once. I married Bradley. Face it, Tina, Iâm not the spontaneous type.â
Tina shook her head. âMarrying Bradley was not spontaneous. You just gave me a very sensible reason why you married him. Spontaneous is when itâs not sensible but you do it anyway because you want to.â
âThatâs not spontaneous, thatâs irresponsible.â
âFine, then do something irresponsible. In fact, do something spontaneous and irresponsible. Do something just because you have the urge to do it, because it feels good. Do something selfish, just for you.â
Lucyâs eyes went back to the dark-haired man across the room. âI donât think so.â She stabbed her salad again.
âHow do you know unless youâve tried it? Youâve never done anything selfish in your life.â
âWell, you know, I did,â Lucy said slowly, her fork frozen in her hand. âOnce. In fact, I think thatâs the real reason why I married Bradley. I dated Bradley because of the second law, but I think I married Bradley to get my house.â
Tina looked interested. âReally? Thatâs so unlike you.â
Lucy nodded. âI think I just convinced myself I loved him because he offered me the house.â She poked at her salad again, averting her eyes from Tina. âI love the house more than I ever loved Bradley. I think he knew it finally, and thatâs why he cheated on me.â
âWell, Iâll be damned.â Tina put her cigarette out and leaned back in the booth. âThis explains a lot. Is this what that fight you had last October was about?â
âHow did you knowâ¦?â
âThatâs when you moved upstairs to the attic bedroom. I never bought that story about Bradley snoring. I knew there had been a fight.â
âNo.â Lucy frowned. âThere wasnât. We never fought. We just had aâ¦disagreement. Over one of the dogs.â
Tina winced. âFor anyone else that would be a minor disagreement. For youâ¦if Bradley did something to one of those dogs, he couldnât have known you very well. And this explains why youâre not brokenhearted over the divorce. Youâre upset, but itâs not because you miss Bradley. Youâre glad heâs gone, arenât you?â
âYes,â Lucy whispered. âThatâs awful, but I am.â
âNo, itâs not. Thatâs healthy. What I donât understand