your plans for next year?” he asked. “It's going
to be strange not knowing you'll be at home with Tim.”
“ What
do you care if Tim has someone right there with him?” I asked
with a laugh. “Are you worried about him?”
“ Not
Tim,” he said.
“ What's
that supposed to mean?” I asked.
“ Nothing,”
he said.
I
went on to tell him that I was going to New York for school. He
didn't have to know it was so that I was far away from everyone. That
included him. My parents couldn't afford college, and I had gotten a
scholarship to a school in New York, so it was going to work out
great. I asked him how school was going for him, and he went on about
what classes he had taken and what he was going to do the following
year. We actually had a very nice conversation. It was the first time
he actually treated me like an equal and not like someone's little
sister. I have no idea how long we talked. He asked me questions
about my senior year, and I asked more about his year. It had to have
been a couple of hours when I felt him move and thought he was going
to leave, but I didn't want him to.
I
shifted to my side, leaned up on my elbow, and opened my eyes to find
he had moved much closer during our talk. He was already on his side
and leaning on his elbow. My breath caught in my chest when I felt
him let out a breath and felt the warmth of it cross my cheek. We
were so close. Our mouths were inches apart. I sucked my bottom lip
between my teeth without realizing it. He slowly leaned forward. I
wasn't sure what to do. I was honestly so afraid that he was going to
burst into laughter at any moment and was so shocked when his lips
connected with mine. I pulled back for just a second with my eyes
wide, but it didn't last long. His free hand wrapped around my neck,
and he pulled me to him.
His
lips were softer than I thought they would be. There was something in
his kiss. I couldn't tell you what it was, but it was different than
any kiss I'd had before. It wasn't rushed or rough. He was sweet,
slow, and loving when he kissed me. His hand held my neck and a
shiver ran through my body. I was still waiting for him to pull away
and was surprised when his tongue came out and moved between my lips.
My gasp escaped me before I could stop it, and he took the
opportunity to thrust his tongue into my mouth to find mine. I closed
my eyes, too afraid that if I opened them I would wake from my dream.
My tongue moved across his like it needed him more than anything.
He
had no idea how many times I'd thought about kissing him. When he
moved me onto my back, keeping his hand behind my head, both of my
hands went to his hair. It was soft, and I loved the length it had
grown to. His kiss deepened and I grabbed hold of his hair. The moan
that left him and vibrated on my lips sent a jolt of pleasure between
my legs. I had no idea what had come over him and hoped, with every
bit of my heart, that he wouldn't pull away from me. His free hand
cupped my cheek. I wanted more than just a kiss from him. So much
more.
When
he moved his hand to the hem of my shirt and began to slide up, I let
out a moan of my own. He continued slowly moving it up, and there was
no way I was going to stop him. When he reached my bra, I wasn't sure
what he was going to do. I grabbed the back of his head and claimed
his mouth hard.
“ Fuck,”
he moaned.
“ Kiss
me,” I whispered.
“ Are
you saying you want my lips on you? You want me to kiss you? I'm not
the last boy in the world, and I definitely don't have a million
dollars,” he said with a smile.
“ Kiss
me now,” I moaned. “Touch me.”
He
pulled my bra down to free my breasts and took one in his hand,
giving it a gentle squeeze. When he took my nipple between his
fingers and began rolling it through them, my back arched into his
touch and I cried out.
“ Jackson,”
I whimpered.
It
was the first time I'd ever called him by his real name in front of
him.
“ Shit,”
he mumbled.
He
pulled my
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