cab, I decided to walk, hoping to exhaust myself. Iâd been having trouble sleeping, which I attributed not only to the breakup with Daniel, but to a slowdown in my workload. I wasnât being challenged enough, which gave me too much time to think about the wreck my personal life had become.
I briefly considered stopping at a bar and finding someone to divert me for an hour or two. Thereâd been a few of those after I became single. I decided against it. Maybe if I went to bed early enough, Iâd sleep in spite of myself. At least I no longer had to look down at Danielâs dark apartment and wonder where he was.
Over the next couple of weeks, cold, gray days continued to dampen my mood. True to her word, Gretchen and I talked every few days. We made tentative plans for our next Gay Day, a screening of the movie The Women in mid-February. Gretchen insisted it was mandatory viewing for a gay man. I ended up having to cancel on her because of a business trip. I wasnât sure I regretted missing the movie, but I definitely wasnât sorry that work was kicking into high gear as we finished getting ready for spring and summer.
My focus was all business as yet another soggy day found me boarding a flight to Baltimore with Sheila. She was behind me in line, yelling into her cell phone. I tried to ignore her conversation, but it was next to impossible. Especially when she slid into her seat next to mine.
âBob,â she said into the phone, âyouâre not listening to me. The point is, Iâm presenting an award for best costumes on national television, and Claude Martrand called with an offer to dress me from his couture line . . . Yes, well, you can imagine my surprise when he wondered why I had ignored his invitation to be in his spring runway show . . . Oh, really? He said you were the one who ultimately declined for me, since I was under obligation to Lillith Parker and couldnât do any shows . . . You know thatâs not true, Bob! I donât want to hear your excuses, either. Lillith may have me on a busy schedule as her Zodiac Girl, but my contract clearly says I can do other jobs as time permits . . . Oh? You think? Well, Iâve got news for you, honey, Iâm on my way to meet with Lillith. Iâm on a plane even as we speak . . . No, I donât need you with me. Blaine Dunhill is with me . . . No! Donât call Lillith! Itâs a personal meeting, Bob . . . Just donât lie to me again. Bye.â She closed her cell phone and tucked it into a highly polished, black leather purse.
âRough day at the office, dear?â I asked.
âBlaine,â she said, turning to me, âI swear Iâm going to leave Metropole if they donât give me another agent. Bobâs a fascist. He thinks he owns me or something.â
âMaybe you should talk to your lawyer, Sheila,â I offered. I didnât know much about the hierarchy of modeling agencies, so it was the best advice I could think of.
âMaybe youâre right.â I watched as she bit her lower lip. It was odd how the little overbite never corrected by braces could now earn upwards of fifteen hundred dollars an hour. âItâs not even noon and I already have a headache.â
âExcuse me,â a woman seated across the aisle from us said. Sheila and I both turned to look at the magazine in her hands. âIs this you?â
The magazine was open to an ad for Zodiacâs Aquarius line by Lillith Allure Cosmetics. Spread out over two glossy pages was a photograph of Sheila dressed as a mermaid, being carried by a buff man in a Speedo on a sandy beach.
âGosh. Look at my hair. Itâs huge,â Sheila pointed out.
âIt looks great,â I observed. âYou look fantastic.â
âI look like the chicken of the sea.â
âSorry, Charlie,â I quipped.
âWould you sign this for me?â the woman asked. âItâs for my daughter.