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was really quick to get angry, but not very quick to get sad or happy. It
kind of bothered me.
    He
sighed. “It isn’t funny. It was kind of expected. Well I thought you would be
dead. I didn’t think Cornelius was dumb enough to keep you alive.”
    “You
know what; it is funny. I thought he would kill me too. I guess I am not that
lucky,” I said dryly.
    “You
really aren’t” he said amused.
    I
smiled and shook my head. At least he felt the same way I did about the whole
thing. He was the only one not acting like I was an idiot. It was actually a
relief to be around someone who wasn’t giving me a look of disappointment.
    “There
you are. Did you check in with Luca?” Aubrey asked as he came to stand beside
me. He signaled the bartender to make him a drink as he did.
    I
nodded. “I hear he is going to stay here for a while.”
    “Until
I can get Colin to take him, but as you can tell Colin and I aren’t on the best
of terms,” he said dryly.
    “What
do I do now?” I asked quietly as I spun the glass in front of me.
    He
watched me for a second then looked away. “You learn control, learn your
abilities, you do what every other vampire in the world does.”
    I
sighed as I stood. “That isn’t good enough,” I muttered then downed my drink. I
turned and walked toward the exit. I wanted to get out of the place. I didn’t
want to be a vampire.
    Aubrey
appeared in front of me. “Where are you going?” he asked in a clipped tone.
    “For
a walk. Why?” I asked. I was a little annoyed that he was attempting to block
me from leaving.
    “You
had a hard time resisting a hunter’s blood. That is far less appealing than a
human’s blood. I cannot allow you to walk outside when a buffet is waiting,” he
snapped.
    “I
already fed. I will be fine,” I countered.
    He
scoffed. “You had barely anything. Just enough to sate your hunger temporarily.
I guarantee the minute you see a human you will rip their throat out. Do you
want that?” He was speaking louder than necessary. Everyone in the bar was
watching us and it was slightly embarrassing. I felt like a child he was
reprimanding. In a way I guess I was.
    “Fine,
I will go to my room,” I growled. I turned and walked back toward my room. I
was furious that he was treating me like a child. I knew he was only doing it
too help me, but it still irritated me.

 
    I
really didn’t need to spend hours in my room alone with my thoughts. I was
going stir crazy. I couldn’t calm down, not to mention I was hungry again. I
didn’t want to feed. The thought felt wrong to me. When I did finally feed on
Drake I felt guilty for liking it. I was beginning to think my hunter side was
counteracting with my vampire side. I was starting to wonder how I was going to
make it work. I wondered how Colin made it work.
    I
found my phone and dialed his number. Maybe talking to him would help me.
    “I
assume you are on lock down and that is why you are calling instead of coming
to the warehouse?” Colin didn’t really sound that happy to hear me. I wasn’t sure
if I should just hang up or tell him the reason I was calling.
    “I
don’t want to fight Colin. I need help,” I said softly. I knew I sounded
pathetic, but I wanted him to talk to me.
    “I
am sorry Lily. What do you need?” he asked softening his tone.
    “I
want to know how you feed,” I said in barely a whisper.
    “What
do you mean?” he asked sounding slightly confused.
    I
rolled my eyes at the ceiling. “I don’t mean the mechanics. I mean how do you
do it without feeling like you are doing something wrong?”
    He
paused like he was thinking about it. “It never goes away. All you can do is
try to bury it.”
    “I
don’t know if I can bury it. I fed on Drake’s wrist and I felt like I shouldn’t
have. I feel like such a monster.” I knew he had to feel the same way. He used
to be a hunter. He had to know how it felt to be different from other vampires.
    “Most
vampires don’t fear killing. Their