thing now!). Maybe I can use Hawaii to draw a bit of a line through my life. Then and now. I mean, itâs not long till Iâll be in my final year of high school. And itâs really not long till Iâll be a big sister. Twice over. Like I said before, everythingâs changing. But the thing is, at the same time, nothingâs changing. Itâs weird. Some days I think I should feel all grown up. That I should know what I want to do when I leave school. That I should know, just by looking at them, that people like Ben, Ned and Justin arenât really my friends. That I should know who to trust and what comes next. But I donât. Most days I just feel like ⦠well, like me. Plain old Nessa. The same as I felt last year. And the year before. Just a bit taller and older.
Life. Itâs confusing, isnât it?
Oh well. At least I got the bikini/one-piece situation sorted out. Thatâs something. At least the tog part of my life is semi under control.
âAn orange juice, Modom?â
I look up from my (very comfortable, thank you) huge beige leather-clad recliner seat to the flight attendant who actually looks more like a butler. Hmmm. I donât think Iâve ever had anyone call me âModomâ before. Not even âModomoiselleâ.
âUm, sure. Thanks,â I say, and he reaches down to put a napkin on the little table in front of me and then the glass on top of that.
âMe too, but no ice,â Nat pipes up loudly in the seat directly across from me. âDad always says that ice is a gyp. That when they put ice in theyâre just trying to use less juice. Same with that cheesy toast they give you at buffets.â
âNat!â Alexa nudges her arm, embarrassed. Poor Alexa hasalready spent most of this trip embarrassed and thereâs only been about two hours of it so far â arriving at the apartment, making our way to the airport and getting on the pj, taking off and so on. Keeping Nat cooped up isnât the best idea. Sheâs more a free-range kind of person and trying to confine her, belted into the one spot for hours on end, seems wrong. Cruel, even. Sheâs all energy â even her red, corkscrew curls canât be contained â and all that belted in, simmering pressure has been popping out in the form of questions as weâve travelled. Mainly directed at Holly.
Across the aisle, however, Holly doesnât seem to mind at all and simply laughs at Natâs honesty. âI think youâre right, Nat. I hate it when you order a drink and itâs mostly ice. Thereâs plenty of juice to go around, though, ice or no ice. Donât you worry about it.â
âOkay, Holly. I wonât,â Nat promises.
Alexa looks out the window and grinds her teeth. I think sheâd like to drown Nat in sheep dip right about now. The pair of them are a pretty funny combination, actually. Itâs just that Alexaâs so groomed and polished and careful about what she says and does and thinks. Everything with her is weighed and measured. Precise.With Nat? Hmmm. Not so much. Natâs more of a âblurt it out and think twice about it later when everyoneâs screaming their head off at youâ kind of gal. Come to think of it, Iâm surprised Natâs made it this far into her NYC trip alive. After yesterdayâs fun and frolic where Nat crash-tackled a guy in a Gap store (she thought he was Brad Pitt) and then, only fifteen minutes later, and supposedly on her best behaviour, gave all the shoppers in the lingerie department in Macyâs a quick five-minute cross-culture lecture on the difference between thongs (New Zealand style â on your feet) and thongs (US style â on your butt), I was sure Alexa would have smothered her in her sleep. But, no. Or at least, not yet, anyway (thereâs always tonight).
Poor Alexa. I think Natâs the troublesome little sister she never had. Hopefully things will