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Shame’s choices in living but when he has an opportunity to insert
a jab, he doesn’t shy away from doing so, thus creating more
tension with everyone.  Cavemen must have never communicated
using words, just pissing matches.  
    “ Right baby, let me say
goodbye to Hem and we will go, you can go wait in the car is that
okay?”  I’m trying to mollify him, he sees this and lets me
have it. Thank hell.
    I wait until I see Greyson finish his
trek down to the drive to his car before turning around. The man
has a beautiful swag and I’ve not been known to avoid watching it
any chance I can get.  A strong gait and confident strides
just do things to a girl.
    Going back near the Clubhouse I find
my brother, beer in one hand and Sadey in the other.  I study
him for a few minutes, with Sadey.  They look so good
together, natural even.  She’s got her arms around his neck
and they are swaying to the music blaring from inside the garage.
 Shakespears Sister, ‘Stay’ must have them both remembering
our times down at the lake when we were so much younger.  It
was a peaceful time in our lives, a time that we will always
remember.
    Coming out of my thoughts I remember I
need to get going! “Hem, Grey and I are leaving, we only wanted to
stop by and say hello.  We aren’t staying for the party
tonight, I’m sorry.  Take care of yourself and please take it
easy on Sade, you know her feelings for you.  Don’t play up to
them.”  
    Sadey whips her head to me and scowls
in embarrassment.  I speak the truth because someone has to
say it and heaven knows she does love Hem.  She wouldn’t stop
him for having her for an evening as if she was part of the Club
ass around here.
    “ Sis, I
know.  I’m well aware of how she feels emotionally and only
for you I won’t take advantage of how she feels inside. ”  He is
grinning down at her I see her eyebrows lift at him and I think
she’s actually throwing him a damn challenge!  Oh he had
better not touch my girl.  Sadey is still pure, untainted, and
with her big heart Hem would crush her and make her unrecognizable
from the innocence she still owns.
    “ God, you’re such a pig.
 I love you and will call you tomorrow.  I mean it, take
care and keep the mouse in the house around Sade.  Oh and Hem,
by the way Greyson and I have finally pinned down a date for the
wedding, you’re still coming to the wedding right? You’re going to
witness my transition to an old married wife?”
    I know he’s hearing me even though
he’s pretending he can’t.  “Hem, you’re coming right?  I
need you there.”  I soften my voice so he can hear that I’m
being sincere.  I couldn’t imagine my big day without
Hem.
    Rolling his eyes in despair, “Yes, I
will be there, dammit woman.  Even though you’re making a big
fucking mistake marrying that no nut tightass when you already know
that Shame called dibs for you years ago, but you never really
listened to what I had to say before, did you?”  
    Argh.  What the hell?
    He smiles as if I’m going to be
tempted into having some heated words with him right now, but I
just don’t have the time.  Adding that to my mental to do list
now though, check!  He’s also drunk and he’s talking nonsense
about Shame and his feelings for me.
    Walking out to the car, I feel another
set of eyes on me.  Shame is drilling me with a distasteful
expression and I can’t put my finger on why he’s so worked up.
 Greyson and I together isn’t anything new to anyone here.
 We’ve been together for two years and are to be married in
less than six months.  I need to soothe my older brother from
another mother (and father).
    I stop mid stride from walking towards
Greyson and turn back to face Shame still standing on the concrete
drive at the Club where I left him a few minutes ago.  His
look to me is almost predatory and I can feel the anger dripping
from his large tattooed frame.  I make my way to him and stare
into those