bathing him with the cold of tombs and crypts. It had been standing at the foot of his bed, that seething amorphous shape, looking at him . . . and that had done it. Heâd woken up, fighting back a scream.
Nerves.
Jesus, thatâs all it was. Too much weird shit happening lately, his imagination had been cranked. And when you lost control of your imagination during the long Antarctic winter, you could be in real trouble.
Hayes settled back in, deciding to lay off the microwave lasagna before bedtime. Because that was probably the real culprit.
Couldnât be anything else.
6
B y the next afternoon, everyone in camp had heard about Lindâs little episode.
At a research station like Kharkhov, there were no secrets. Stories â whether real, imagined, or grossly exaggerated â made the rounds like clap at a convention. Everything was passed around, re-told, re-invented, blown out of proportion until it bore little resemblance to the incident that had inspired it.
In the mess hall, trying to eat his grilled cheese sandwich and tomato soup in peace, they were all over Hayes like birds on roadkill, all pecking away to see if there was any good red meat left on the carcass.
âHeard Lind tried to slit his wrists,â Meiner, one of the heavy equipment operators was saying, smelling like diesel fuel and hydraulic grease and not doing much for Hayesâ appetite. âSumbitch just went crazy, theyâre saying, crazier than a red-headed shitbug. Just lost it staring down at that mummy in the ice.â
Hayes sighed, set his sandwich down. âHe -â
âItâs true enough,â St. Ours said. âI was there with him for awhile. He was getting a funny look in his eyes the whole time, just staring at the ugly bastard in the ice, that monster just thawing out and that face swimming up clear . . . and it werenât no sort of face Iâd want to see again.â
Rutkowski jumped in at that point, started saying how Lind had gotten a funny gleam in his eyes like a man ready to jump off a bridge. That none of it surprised him because there was something funny about Lind and something even funnier about those dead things Gates had dragged back from the camp in the foothills.
They talked on and on non-stop.
Didnât let Hayes get a word in edgewise about any of it. Other than Gates, Holm, and Bryer, heâd been the only one to see Lindâs breakdown, if thatâs what it had been. Both Rutkowski and St. Ours had left the hut maybe fifteen minutes before. Not that the lack of firsthand experience in the matter was slowing them down any.
Meiner was saying how heâd been at the Palmer Station on Anvers Island one lean winter and that three people had committed suicide one week, slit their wrists to a man, one after the other. It was spooky shit, he said. Got so people at Palmer thought there was some sort of insanity bug making the rounds. But that was the Antarctic winter, sometimes people just couldnât take the isolation, the desolation, it got under their skins like scabies. And when that happened, when something slipped a cog upstairs, then that left a person wide open to bad âinfluences.â
âDonât surprise me, not one cunt-hair,â St. Ours confessed to them. âWe had this man and wife team at McMurdo one winter, funny ducks they were, geologists, studying rocks and corings, always looking for something but real vague as to what it was when you put a question to âem. Anyway, they were up on Mount Erebus for maybe a week, doing some digging. They come down, come back, and they got this funny look in their eyes . . . kind of a shellshocked look, you know?â
Rutkowski nodded. âSeen it plenty of times.â
âSure enough,â St. Ours said. âSure enough. Only this time it was worse, savvy? They had all these rocks they found up there, but real flat with weird carvings on âem like hieroglyphics or some of