shock, I was so sure that weâd all stick it out together. We were the strong ones, we agreed at the beginning, the Meisells and the Lachmanns. Now Sharon says that we were the foolish ones, and Iâve no doubt sheâs right.
âAnyway,â Ruth bounced the child on her lap, Rachel raking her tiny fingers through the fair honey-brown of her motherâs hair, âI suggested to Samuel that we should try to get out too. Sharonâs given me the contact for the false papers.â
âExcellent,â Mannie agreed enthusiastically. âIâll pick them up for you. Iâll do whatever I can â¦â
She interrupted him. âSamuel wonât go.â
âWhy?â he asked, but she wasnât listening.
âHe would have, years ago when you said that we should. Samuel would have listened to you, Mannie. But he stayed because of my stubbornness. No,â she corrected herself with a rueful raise of her eyebrows, âmy selfishness. My determination to live on in my fatherâs home, regardless of the danger to my husband and child. And now Samuelâs the one who refuses to leave.â She disentangled the childâs fingers from her hair and put Rachel down on the floor. The child toddled over to Mannie to tug at his trouser legs.
âSamuel says that âthe tide has turnedâ,â she continued. âHe says that itâs only a matter of time before Germany is defeated, and we must âweather the stormâ.â Ruth smiled as she imitated her husband. âYou know Samuel, Mannie â the constant optimist, and how he does love a cliché when heâs being dramatic.â A humorous twinkle returned to her eyes as she fought to lighten the moment. Besides, she realised, she did feel better now that she had admitted her guilt, and to the person to whom her admission was most important. âHe always thinks if he says something passionately, and often, it will come true.â
Mannie remained silent, but he nodded.
âSo we shall âweather the stormâ together. Who am I, having demanded we remain in the first place, to now decide otherwise? Then he said he was off to earn some money and we were to have fresh chicken soup. I told him if anyone should risk going out to work it should be me. He looks so damn Jewish!â She shrugged, refusing to admit to the fear she had felt all afternoon, and her laugh was one of loving exasperation.
Ruthâs laughter was normally contagious, but this time Mannie didnât join in. âIâll speak to him, Ruth. Iâll convince him.â
âSpeak to me about what? Convince me about what? No, no, donât tell me. Youâre going to read me the riot act.â
Mannie rose, and Samuel, a towel around his neck, his black hair wet and tousled, gathered his friend in a boisterous hug. âNo lectures until after the soup, though, Mannie, weâre dining early â I havenât eaten since breakfast and Iâm starving.â
âSomeone has to talk sense to you, for Godâs sake â¦â Mannie began as soon as he could extricate himself from the embrace.
âAfter the soup!â Samuel had picked up Rachel and was whirling her about, the child squealing excitedly. âNo lectures until after the soup, promise me.â
âAll right, all right,â Mannie agreed. âWhen Rachelâs gone to bed.â
âRead story, Mannie, read story,â the little girl called at the mention of bedtime.
âAfter the soup.â It was Ruth giving the orders, as she rose and crossed into the kitchen.
Mannie followed with the bag of groceries, unpacking the bread, the powdered eggs, several tins, and producing, with a flourish, a precious small brown paper bag.
âCoffee!â Ruth exclaimed delightedly upon opening it. âHow on earth did you manage that?â
âWe lawyers have excellent black-market connections.â He grinned,