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DIED because everyone knows who he is and he
has these big brown eyes and blond hair with bits of very blonde in it and did I say he’s in year ten and he did a modelling job and everyone thinks he’s really cool.
    Anyway, he said hello and I stopped and said hello back and we just got talking and he was really nice, asking about where I’d been and how it was late to get out of prison (by which he
meant school) and he said his dad had lost his job and was at home a lot at the moment which was a nightmare and he might even have to leave the school. So I told him how my dad wasn’t at
home AT ALL and that he’d moved out in February and gone to live with Emily and my mum was all upset and he said he was really sorry to hear that. Then he got a bit closer and said he’d
noticed me before and he said I looked different than before half term and I asked what he meant and he looked at my coat, at the front of it, which was open, and he kept looking and the way he was
staring made me feel a bit tingly and he touched my face and said I had very kissable lips. IMAGINE it, Sam Edwards from year ten actually thinking I was attractive and I couldn’t speak and
then he gave me a kiss and it made me feel all wobbly and even more tingly and he asked if I was in a hurry and I said no (because Mum wasn’t even going to be home yet and I’ve been
letting myself in on Tuesdays and Thursdays since September). So Sam put his arm around me and we started walking and somehow we ended up behind the Chapel just after the bit where the light comes
on when you go past but there’s just trees so it’s all shadowy even when the light’s shining. And he kissed me again. And at first it was lovely but then he put his hand on my
school shirt, like, over my chest and he felt around a bit and I felt a bit uncomfortable but he was still kissing which I liked so I let him. Then he stopped kissing and tried to put his hand up
my skirt and now I felt a bit scared but he said I was really hot and his breathing was all heavy and I liked that he was all looking in my eyes but not the touching. So I kind of wriggled back
away from him and he asked what was I so worried about and I shrugged because really I wasn’t sure.
    And Sam said he wanted a feel for ‘just a moment’, that he wasn’t going to do anything, so I let him feel around a teeny bit more while I waited and I didn’t like it
– I mean I know that you can’t get pregnant that way OBVIOUSLY, not unless they smear their stuff on their fingers first, I just didn’t like it – but it was Sam Edwards and
he looked so gorgeous in the shadowy trees and I didn’t want him not to like me. Anyway, after it had been more than ‘just a moment’ I wriggled away again hoping he wouldn’t
be cross and he said ‘all right then’ and I thought maybe we’d do some more kissing but he started unbuttoning my school shirt and I REALLY did want to say no then but I’d
already stopped him touching me so I let him and his eyes were like HUGE when he saw I hadn’t put my bra on today because some days I do and some days I don’t and today I didn’t.
And I felt REALLY self-conscious because there isn’t much there and I didn’t like him seeing so I pulled my shirt across me and he looked up and I said I should go and he said I was
hot, AGAIN, and that we didn’t have to do any more touching and what would I like to do and I sort of said ooh I like kissing, hoping he’d go back to that, but he just laughed and said
they don’t kiss in the films of it and I wasn’t sure what he meant but I was feeling confused anyway – and a bit scared and a bit worried I should go so I’d get home before
Mum.
    And then he got out his phone and he said I was SO hot that he wanted a picture of my front, like I was a MODEL. And I wasn’t sure but Sam said again that I was the hottest girl in the
school and he was staring at my chest when he said that and I was AMAZED because to me they are