sale if not for the derelict students flopped on the furniture, squeezing in a last smoke. Iâd seen most of them coming and going from Boshoffâs office too, their clothes a kind of uniform: hoodies, thermals, ripped jeans, pentagrams and 666âs doodled on their knuckles.
âHey, Wednesday, you see something you like?â
This question came from Brian Waldrup, a freshman who lived in the golf course development, when he caught me staring. Brian was not the only person at school to call me by that name: Wednesday Addams. I reached into my fatherâs tote and pulled out the diary, if only to look like I was doing something. As I stared at that empty first page again, I wondered what memories would come if I allowed myself to break my fatherâs rule.
âYou know what?â Brian said. He had folded up his recliner and was making his way closer. When he reached me, I felt his breath, skunky with tobacco, against my good ear. He paused, and I thought of so many things I wished heâd say: I see you leaving Boshoffâs office too. Are you okay? Or, I remember the homemade paper hearts you handed out on Valentineâs Day in first grade. You gave me two because Iâd broken my arm and you felt bad. Or even, I know what happened to your parentsâwe all doâand I hope at the trial this spring the jury puts that psycho, Albert Lynch, behind bars. Instead, he asked, âWhat did your parents keep in the basement?â
âNothing.â
âDonât lie, Wednesday. Gomez and Morticia wouldnât approve.â
âIâm not lying. Thereâs nothing down there.â
Impossible as it seemed, Brian came closer still, his tight body pressing into mine as he whispered, âYouâre lying. Just like they did. And you know what else? Your mom got what she deserved. Your father too. Right now, the two of them are burning in hell.â
That might sound like the worst thing a person could say, but I tried not to feel bothered. It was a lesson I used to get every Sunday, when my family still went to Mass in the gym at Saint Bartholomewâs Catholic School, where we arrived early and sat in the front pew at the edge of the three-point line. As we followed along with Father Coffey in the epistleâmy sister and me in Sunday dresses that I loved but she hatedâwhispers came from the pews behind us. Even if I didnât hear what was being said, I understood that it had to do with us, the Mason family, and our presence in that makeshift church.
I smiled at Brian Waldrup. After all, despite those symbols and devil numbers drawn in pen on his knuckles, he was just a kid my age whose mother picked him up from school in her Volvo every afternoon. I had seen them rolling out of the parking lot on their way to that pretty yellow house on the golf course, where I imagined her sliding a roast or chicken into the oven most nights, flipping pancakes or scrambling eggs most mornings. Thinking of the differences between Brianâs life and my own made it less difficult to smile because I was reminded how harmless he was. And when I finished smiling, I tucked the diary back into my fatherâs tote and headed toward Roseâs enormous red truck rolling up the drive at last, AC/DC screeching from her speakers.
âBoo!â Brian yelled as he watched me walk away.
When Rose came to a stop, I opened the truck door and climbed inside. Since sheâd hacked off her hair again a second time last winter, it had grown back long and wild, black as mine still, but with a reddish hue that hadnât been there before. Rose liked to keep the windows down and let the strands whip around her, so that when she came to a stop she had to pull the mess away from her face.
âHey,â she said from behind her tangled hair.
âBoo!â Brian called from the curb, waving his hands and jumping up and down.
âWhatâs his problem?â my sister asked as her