see whether she rolled her eyes. Her face was already in the pantry, where she pawed at the cereal boxes. From the back, she was still a waif of a child, with little-girl-fine golden tresses and a penchant for long flowy skirts, an echo of the tiny days when she fancied herself a fairy princess. Her front was a different story, where late-blooming breasts and a well-rehearsed disdain proclaimed her as teenager .
âSilly me,â I said.
âUnless you want to take me to school,â she said into the cabinet.
Her wistfulness slapped me in the face.
âI canât today, Jay,â I said. âI have an early meeting.â
Iâd made up half-truths so easily until now, but this lie stuck to my tongue like a frozen pole.
âWhat happened to Rachel last night?â I said.
âI donât know. She ditched me, I guess.â
âIâm sorry I didnât get your message right away. I hadâa meeting.â
Jayne turned and looked at me over the top of the Rice Krispies. âIs that all you doâgo to meetings?â
âSounds like it, doesnât it?â
âWhatever.â She shook her hair back and turned the box upside down over a bowl. Two pieces of cereal bounced into it. She curled
her lip.
âSoâhow was rehearsal?â I asked.
I tried to listen as I filled my coffee cup and twisted the lid on. If I didnât get out of there, I wouldnât get to talk to Zach before his eight oâclock.
âI got a different part,â Jayne said.
I fumbled for the appropriate reply. âI thought you were playing Mary Warren.â
âMercy Lewis.â She gave a disgusted grunt.
âOh, soâwho are you now?â
âAbigail Williams.â
The sudden light in her always-serious brown eyes made me hunt through my faded memory of The Crucible.
âIsnât she a main character?â
Jayne nodded. The shyness that had disappeared with her twelfth year glowed on her face. I felt my throat thicken.
âJay, thatâs amazing!â I said. âCongratulations!â
âRachel didnât learn her lines and she kept messing around during rehearsal, so Mrs. Dirks bumped her and gave the part to me.â She tilted her head like a small bird, spilling a panel of wavy hair across her thin cheek. âMaybe thatâs why she left me last night.â
âYa think?â I willed myself not to look at my watch. âWell, from now on, Iâll pick you up from rehearsals.â
âWhat if you have a meeting?â she said, adolescence slipping cleanly back into place.
âIâm not going to be having so many meetings from now on.â The thickness hardened in my throat. I couldnât even say good-bye.
Iâd just turned off Raintree Place when my cell phone belted out its disco version of the âHallelujah Chorus,â the ring tone one of my students chose for me. My heart sagged when the number on the screen wasnât Zachâs. It was a college number though.
âDr. Costanas, this is Gina Livorsi,â said the California-crisp voice on the line.
Dr. Ethan Kayeâs assistant. As in president of Covenant Christian College. My boss and my friend. So was Gina. My stomach tightened. Since when was I âDr. Costanasâ to her?
âWhy so formal?â I said.
âFormal occasion.â She sounded guarded. âDr. Kaye wants to see you in his office. Soon as you can make it.â
It was already after seven. Zach liked to be in his classroom by seven forty-fiveâ
âI have a class at nine,â I said. âI can be there after that.â
Gina pausedâuncomfortably, I thought.
âHe says to cancel your class and be here at eight if you can.â
âDo I have a choice?â
âUnh-uh.â
âWhatâs this about, Gina?â
âHe didnât say.â
âHe didnât have to,â I said. âYou always