throws his arms in the air and shakes his head in frustration. âWhatever.â
âI donât like that we have a hard time working together now.â
âAre we talking now?â Sam asks, an edge of sarcasm to his tone.
âYes. You are permitted to speak.â
Sam rolls his eyes. âI donât like that we donât vibe the way we used to either. I miss that.â
âI miss that too.â
âSo what are we gonna do about it?â Sam clears his throat and looks at me as if I have the answers. I have no answers!
âIâm gonna be honest. Every time I look at you I think about you deflowering Rielle.â
âPlease, for the love of everything, get off of that! It was one night. It was horrible and it was a mistake. If thereâs any one action I could take back, it would be that.â
I narrow my eyes at Sam and try to pierce his soul with my gaze. He definitely sounds sincere, but what does sincerity have to do with anything? It doesnât change the fact that Rielle did lose her virginity to Sam on prom night. No matter how much Sam would rather wish it away.
âIâm glad you would take it back if you could. Remorse is a good start.â
Sam sighs. Thereâs more sadness in the sound than frustration. I donât know why he just expects me to get over this. Iâm not being this way just to get on Samâs nerves. If I could just get over it, it would make it a lot easier for me too!
âSo what are we going to do, huh? I canât write without you, and I donât really like you. What are we going to do about that?â I ask.
âI donât know. I guess youâll have to decide to start liking me again.â
âYou donât think you should help facilitate that?â
Sam shrugs. âI donât know what else to do. Iâve apologized, gone without a girlfriend, and been a straight-up monk. You know the truth now, because you talked to Rielle. So . . . I donât know what else I can do. Maybe if you moved all those boys out of your house, youâd miss your real friends.â
I roll my eyes at Sam and laugh. He would probably do anything to get DeShawn out of my house, but heâs not going anywhere. DeShawn is even planning on staying with me over the summer instead of going home. Everyone else except Piper is going to be with their families in two months. Iâm not exactly sure how thatâs going to work, but Iâm not opposed to it.
âThey are my real friends, Sam. If youâd hang around town long enough to get to know them you might like them too.â
âYeah . . . no.â
This conversation is not going the way I envisioned that it would go. Sam runs one hand over his low fade and grins at me. Even though almost everything about Sam has changed, his face has not. Heâs not exactly what youâd call cute. He has thick eyebrows, a big nose, and full lips that he keeps sufficiently unchapped. But the sum of all his parts is a pleasant face that Iâve come to appreciate.
âIâve got some decent music ideas. None of them are completely fleshed out yet, but thatâs because my mojo isnât right. The feel I want for my next record isnât exactly pop or R and B. Itâs more like country pop. Do you think we could do that?â
âI can do whatever you want. You just need to talk to your mojo. Have a real heart-to-heart with dude, and let him know how much you still need him.â
âWhat makes you think my mojo is a dude?â
âYour mojo is a chick?â
I burst out laughing. âSam! My mojo isnât a person. It is an it! And it is not acting right these days.â
âHow can I help?â
âI donât know. Maybe you could talk to it,â I say with a giggle.
Sam clears his throat and looks at my forehead. âDear Mr. or Ms. Mojo . . .â
âWait, why are you looking at my head?â
âIsnât
Matthew Woodring Stover; George Lucas