even raise his head. âWhy should I worry Mother with Uncle Lenâs bad moods?â
His pen scratched on, leaving a trail of blots across the paper.
I couldnât help it. The words burst out of me. âHis moods are almost every day now. And theyâre getting worse .â
Will kept on writing, but he answered me. âThatâs because things are going badly again at the theatre.â
âBut he makes Frozen Billy move and talk like a real boy. And no one sees his lips move.â
My brother shook his head. âItâs what Madame Terrazini said. Itâs the patter.â
I pointed to the letter Will was writing. âThatâs all made up. You can write anything. Canât you help Uncle Len invent a new patter?â
He shrugged me off. âHow would I know what people want to hear? Iâve never even been in a music hall.â
âYou could always make Mother and Father laugh. And me. And Uncle Len.â
âThatâs different. Thatâs easy.â
âBut you could try . And then perhaps I wouldnât have to be called Lady Muck-on-Toast simply for tying on my own hat!â
And I burst into tears.
Will shifted from his chair to the one at my side, and patted my arm. âNow, now,â he soothed, the very same way Father used to do whenever I cried.
It made the tears fall faster. So you could say that everything that followed was my fault. If Iâd not wept so hard, my loving brother would have simply kept on with his letter. I would have blacked the grate. And none of the rest of the story would be worth telling.
But I sat and cried.
The Third Notebook
S o thatâs how it came about that Uncle Len pushed open the door that night after another restless, cat-calling audience at the theatre, and caught me dashing tears from my eyes.
Tears of amusement.
For Will had perched himself on the chair at the end of the table. He sat stiffly, tipping his head from one side to the other in the same way that Uncle Len makes Frozen Billyâs head move when heâs asking him a question. And Will had somehow made his mouth look big and square, and his eyes round and marble hard, like the dummyâs. And heâd been telling me, in the strange, cocky voice we think of as Frozen Billyâs, what that rapscallion Will had been up to at school today.
Waving a stiff hand, he welcomed Uncle Len into the room. âStep in. Step in and warm yourself beside the fire while Miss Clarissa here makes you a reviving mug of finest cocoa.â
Uncle Len fell in the spirit of things right away. âGood evening, young Billy. And whatâs new with you?â
âNew? New? What would I know about new? Is this a new jacket?â Without unstiffening his fingers, Will made a plucking move towards his other sleeve, just like the dummy would. âAre these new trousers? Did you buy me a new cap? No. It seems the only new thing Iâm going to get is a new patter. And thatâs free .â
Uncle Len hooted with amusement, then tapped me on the arm. âDonât miss this, Clarrie!â He turned back to Will. âSo itâs a complaint Iâm hearing, is it?â
âIt most certainly is,â Will said in Frozen Billyâs voice. âIn fact, if you donât treat me better, Iâm going to run away.â
âRun away, little man? Where to?â
Will cocked his head on one side, as though thinking. âLet me see . . .â
And off they went again, with Uncle Len as glad as Will to keep the game going. He knew better than anyone how much time Will and I had spent over the years, watching him and listening to him practise. But still he seemed astonished that Will was able to ape Frozen Billyâs voice with such swift skill.
âSo youâll be a whole lot kinder to me in future?â
âI most certainly will, young Billy.â
âCross your heart and hope to die?â
âCross my