said with a shrug.
âMarry?â Ãthelstan stared. âMarry whom?â
âAldwulf of East Anglia,â I replied, feeling sick as I said the name.
âHeâs an old man!â my cousin exclaimed. âOlder than my father! And you ...â
âIâve passed my sixteenth winter,â I muttered, gazing at my horse. âIâm older than my mother was when Grandfather Alfred gave her away.â
âBut Wyn, I thoughtââ Ãthelstan gripped the low door of the stall. âIt was better to leave thinking that you would be here, in Lunden, when I returned.â
âPerhaps weâll meet in East Anglia,â I said, looking straight ahead. âIâm sure King Edwardâs son would be a welcome guest in Aldwulfâs household.â
âÃthelstan!â The shout rang out down the passageway, and Winter lifted his head, blinking a dark eye at us.
âTheyâve already gathered all my things,â Ãthelstan said helplessly. âI have to go.â He glanced once more into the stall. âYou will ride him when Iâve gone, wonât you?â I shrugged, unable to speak, and then his arms were around me. His young manâs soft beard brushed my face. âGod go with you, cousin,â he whispered fiercely, âuntil I see you again.â
âWe ride, Ãthelstan!â came a second shout, making Winter toss his head, and Ãthelstan turned and ran for the stable door.
3
ALONE
I REMEMBER THE SPRING RAINS AFTER ÃTHELSTAN LEFTâA grey month when we rarely saw the sun, and the men who worked the land shook their heads and spoke of flooded furrows and seedlings washed away. Grimbald taught me on my own, or occasionally with Gytha when she found time to read with us. He seemed surprised at the number of pages I wanted to study each day, but there was little else for me to do between lessons. It was muddy in the streets of Lunden, and I had little taste for any excursion now that Ãthelstan was gone.
My own chamber seemed best on days when I was not wanted at the library. Gytha saw how I preferred things, and on dim mornings when we had to close the wooden shutters against the rain, she made the serving women bring me extra rushlights and candles for reading, despite their frowns at such a waste.
Sometimes Mother came to read with Grimbald and me. She had been my first teacher when I was a little girl just learning the shapes of my letters, and her taste for old songs about heroes and their brave deeds helped form my own love for English poetry. Grimbald had little use for monsters and battle-stories, but when Lady Ãthelflæd appeared at the scriptorium for a third day, he again put our studies aside to indulge her.
âSave the lines you have prepared until tomorrow,â he told me grudgingly. âToday we will read the deed of Judith, a maiden who saved Godâs people from the barbarian sword.â I closed my book, glancing at my mother, who wore a broad smile.
âYour teacher remembers the sort of tale I liked, when he and I used to study together,â she murmured as Grimbald turned away to his pile of manuscripts.
âHe taught you?â I whispered, surprised.
âWhen first I came to Merciaââshe noddedââwhen he was a younger monk, not long at the abbey. He was gloomy, even then.â
My teacher turned back to us. âSmiling, are you?â Grimbald scowled at me. âWell, I donât suppose you know this text.â He placed an open book before me with a thump and I shook my head.
âI have heard others tell of Judith, from Godâs holy writings,â I told him, âbut I have not read the story myself.â
âGood,â he grunted. âYou can show us how well you read Latin by sight.â
It was not a particularly difficult passage. I began reading aloud slowly, stopping whenever Grimbald or Mother wished to take a few lines. I