a wheelchair thanks to polio when she was ten years old. The fact that Rachel has a grandmother in a wheelchair could be why she is always so sensitive to people with other disabilities.
âMorning, Mom. Thanks for getting Rachel ready for school.â
âThatâs okay. I knew you were really tired from all the work youâve been doing with the festival.â
âYeah, and Iâve still got today through Saturday to go.â
She seemed to be deep in her own thoughts. Iâve always thought my mother resembled the Madonna. A Raphaelite version of Madonna, not the version on MTV. She had an oval-shaped face with a small bow mouth and aquiline nose. Her skin was smooth and creamy, and I am completely jealous. Her dark hair was now turning gray and no matter what inner struggle she was dealing with she always seemed calm and in complete control. Just how I would imagine the Virgin Mary. Wonder what Freud would have to say about that?
I left her alone to drink her coffee, grabbed a Dr Pepper, and walked Rachel out to catch the bus. She wore her green-and-red dress with the cows on it. As the bus approached, she looked up at me with serious black eyes and said, âMom, do you know what the worst part about not having arms is?â
âNo, what?â
âAll the clothes have sleeves.â
In her innocence she couldnât see the much more devastating things in life that a serious disability would cause. To her it was what to do with sleeves. I crouched down next to her and gave her a big hug.
âI think the saddest part would be not being able to hug my children,â I said.
Enlightenment dawned on her just as her bus pulled up. I could see the full implications of what Iâd just said play in those dark eyes of hers. She waved then. âBye, Mom. See you tonight.â
I waved and watched the bus until it was completely down the street, then went back inside and headed upstairs to my office. Passing Rudy on the way up, I stopped and gave him a kiss.
I sat down at my desk and dialed the number for the National Personnel Records Center in St. Louis.
âDefense Department,â a woman said.
âHoward Braukman, please.â
I waited a few minutes for Howard to come on the line. Howard used to be a neighbor when I was a kid in Progress, Missouri. I thought he could save me some footwork on Norahâs family tree. While I waited, I took a folder from the middle left-hand drawer and wrote in black magic marker, Counts/Pritcher Client: Norah Zumwalt.
âBraukman,â a voice said.
âHowie, are you still trying to sound like a boot camp sergeant? It just doesnât fit you.â He was actually sort of cute. It had been at least six months since Iâd seen Howie at an anniversary dinner for his parents. Then I saw him again three weeks later, when his mother died. He wore Coke-bottle glasses and had white blond hair. There was something so insecure about him that you couldnât help but befriend him.
âHi, Torie. Howâs your mom?â
âFine.â Everybody always asks about my mother first. âListen, I have a client whose father served in World War II.â
âYouâll have to have her fill out a form. You know that,â he said.
âYes, I know. The NA13075 and the NA13055. Send them to me, and Iâll have her fill them out. But could you do me a big favor?â
âNo.â
âCome on. You owe me,â I said, teasing.
âWhat do you want?â
âCould you just take a peek and tell me when he died?â
âAbsolutely not. Torie, I could get in big trouble.â
I waited a few seconds, thinking of what I could do to persuade him. âI could always tell your mother about Henrietta Pierce.â
He was silent for a few moments.
âYou know I have done lots of favors for you, Howie. Kept lots of secrets.â
âThis is blackmail.â
âI know. Look, I just want to know