lifted questioningly to mine. What I had thought a veil was not that; it seemed to be more like a shimmering screen wrapped around the features so that Gamine was faceless, an invisible person with substance but no apprehensible characteristics. Yes, it was like that; as if there was an invisible person wearing the curious silken draperies. But the invisible flesh was solid enough. Hands like cold steel gripped my shoulders. âYou have been back? Back to the days before the second sun? Adric, tell me; did Earth truly have but one sun?â
âWaitââ I begged. âYou mean Iâve travelled in time?â
The exultation faded from Gamineâs voice imperceptibly. âNever mind. It is improbable in any case. No, Adric; not really travelling. You were only sent out on the Time Ellipse, till you contacted some one in that other Time. Perhaps you stayed in contact with his mind so long that you think you are he?â
âIâm not Adricââ I raged. âAdric sent me hereââ
I saw the blurring around Gamineâs invisible features twitch in a headshake. âItâs never been proven that two minds can be interchanged like that. Adricâs body. Adricâs brain. The brain convolutions, the memory centers, the habit patternsâyouâd still be Adric. The idea that you are someone else is only an illusion of your conscious mind. It will wear off.â
I shook my head, puzzled. âI still donât believe it. Where am I?â
Gamine moved impatiently. âOh, very well. You are Adric of Narabedla; and if you are sane again, Lord of the Crimson Tower. I am Gamine.â The swathed shoulders moved a little. âYou donât remember? I am a spell-singer.â
I jerked my elbow toward the window. âThose are my own mountains out there,â I said roughly. âIâm not Adric, whoever he is. My nameâs Mike Kenscott, and your hanky-panky doesnât impress me. Take off that veil and let me see your face.â
âI wish you meant thatââ a mournfulness breathed in the soft contralto. A sudden fury blazed up in me from nowhere. âAnd what right have you to pry for that old fool Rhys? Get back to your own place, then, spell-singerââ I broke off, appalled. What was I saying? Worse, what did I mean by it? Gamine turned. The sexless voice was coldly amused. âAdric spoke then. Whoever sits in the seat of your soul, you are the sameâand past redemption!â The robes whispered sibilantly on the floor as Gamine moved to the door. âKaramy is welcome to her slave!â
The door slammed.
Left alone, I flung myself down on the high bed, stubbornly concentrating on Mike Kenscott, shutting out the vague blurred mystery in my mind that was Adric impinging on consciousness. I was not Adric. I would not be. I dared not go to the window and look out at the terrifying two suns, even to see the reassurance of the familiar Sierra Madre skyline. A homesick terror was hurting in me.
But persistently the Adric memories came, a guilty feeling of a shirked duty, and a frightened faceâa real face, not a blurred nothingnessâbeneath Gamineâs blue veils. Memories of strange hunts and a big bird on the pommel of a high saddle. A bird hooded like a falcon, in crimson.
Consciousness of dress made me remember theânightshirtâI still wore. Moving swiftly, without conscious thought, I went to a door and slid it open; pulled out some garments and dressed in them. Every garment in the closet was the same color; deep-hued crimson. I glanced in the mirror and a phrase Gamine had used broke the surface of my mind like a leaping fish. âLord of the Crimson Tower.â Well, I looked it. There had been knives and swords in the closet; I took out one to look at it, and before I realized what I was doing I had belted it across my hip. I stared, decided to let it remain. It looked all right with the
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