treetops, mournful and a little lonely in a way, and a truck passing on the highway, heading into the city or perhaps to Dulles.
But it was safe here, something his wife, whoâd been raised in a reasonably upscale environment as the only daughter of a corporate lawyer in Chicago, could never understand. By instinct, at times like this, alone with just his own thoughts, he would catch himself listening for other sounds. Some distant, some very close. The whine of a droneâs engine, or of a Russian Hind helicopter gunship. The clank of metal on metal as a troop of Taliban fighters or Iranian Revolutionary Guard soldiers approached up a mountain pass. The snick of an AK-47 slide being pulled back and released. Footfalls on loose gravel. Someone or something rising up behind him, carrying a knife or a wire garrote.
Suddenly spooked, he turned and looked down the gravel road toward the Bubble, and then did a careful scan of the woods surrounding the house that had been a private residence until the CIA had taken it over in 1987. But nothing moved. He was absolutely alone, and not in a place where harm was likely to come his way. Of any spot in the world, here was the safest place for him to be, and not a day went by that he didnât bless his good fortune for surviving Hungaryâs turbulence when he was a kid growing up in Rabahidveg, close to the Austrian border.
Two uncles had been shot to death by KGB border patrol pricks, and his father had been taken into custody for reasons theyâd never been told. There heâd been tortured day and night for more than a week. Afterward heâd been a broken man, unable even to feed himself or use the toilet without help.
Then Hungary was free, in a large measure because of Americaâs diplomacy and the harsh realities of a Soviet system that simply could not support its own weight. Istvan had specialized in English in school, and when he was nineteen, he went to the U.S. and joined the army, where he was first made a translatorâin addition to Hungarian and English, he was also fluent in Russianâand then into INSCOM, which was the armyâs intelligence and security command, where he became a spy.
The transition to the CIA had been easy at first, until heâd been selected to become an NOC and had been sent first to Afghanistan and later to Iraq. Then the nightmares started, and theyâd become so bad that, by the time heâd slipped home on a short leave, Fanni, who heâd known from college at Northwestern while he was in the army, almost left him.
They were sleeping together, and after his second morning back, sheâd slipped out of bed to make them coffee. She brought the coffee and a plate of sweet rolls on a tray that she set on her side of the bed, then went around to him and bent down to brush a kiss onto his lips.
He suddenly reared up out of a deep sleep and smashed his fist into her face, breaking several of her teeth, dislocating her jaw, and sending her sprawling onto the floor.
They were both in shock.
After a trip to the emergency room, where her jaw was sent in place and sheâd been given pain pills, they went back to the apartment. But she wasnât fearful of him; instead she was puzzled and angry.
âYou didnât do it on purpose, Isty; you did it purely on instinct,â she told him. âFor survival.â
They were sitting across from each other at the tiny kitchen table, and he had a hard time looking her in the eye. Her jaw was red and swollen, and she spoke with a lisp because of the missing teeth.
âFor survival from what? Have you been on a battlefield somewhere?â
âI canât tell you.â
âYou canât or you wonât?â she demanded, her voice rising.
âCanât.â
âWhy?â
âOrdersââ
âBullshit. I want the truth!â
âMy life and yours could depend on your not knowing what I do.â
âAre you a