and I decided to get us all out of Serbia, walk out with other refugees. But we got caught up with some soldiers and sheâ¦â Viktor stops and looks through the big window at the warehouses outside, lost in thought.
I donât say anything, because I donât know what to say. The silence drags out for a while. Then Viktor starts up again. Speaking louder, faster. Like he can just speed over that part of his story.
âAnyways, we didnât see her again. I left Serbia with my son. I remembered how good it was here the first time, during the Olympics. So I came back. Not a star this time, just a refugee. Decided to be a businessman. Now, Iâm like Donald Trump.â He laughs and stretches his arms out wide, as if heâs king of the world. Heâs got a strange sense of humor. The business is a dump.
âYou donât look like a millionaire,â I say. He laughs again.
âNo. Business can be hard sometimes. But one day, I will be rich. I will win, just like in the races.â He smiles broadly under his mustache and reaches for more tea. While he pours, I look around the office. Despite all the photographs and newspaper clippings on the wall, I realize that I havenât seen a single picture of his wife or kids.
âWhat about your son?â
âNiko?â Viktor looks startled, rattling the teapot back onto the desk. âWhat about him?â
âWhat happened to him?â I say. From the expression on Viktorâs face, I realize I shouldnât have asked.
âHe lives in the city. He is a kind of businessman too,â says Viktor. But thatâs it. The silence drags out between us.
âSo you still coach?â I say nervously.
âNot for long time. Kai, a few others. Some of these bike couriers think they want to race, but most of them are too crazy. Not enough strength up here.â He taps his forehead. âAll strength down below. You understand?â
âKind of.â I shift uncomfortably in my seat, fiddling with the teacup. Viktor laughs, which turns into a gravelly cough.
âI think you might be like that.â He shakes his head, still coughing. âYou know what? Iâm tired. Too tired to coach a little lion.â Viktor pulls himself slowly to his feet, spilling some tea on his old sweater.
I can feel myself losing ground. As if Iâm watching the pack pull away from me again.
âYou donât understand,â I say. âIâm so close. To being good. Really good. Other people say so. I know it. I just need some help.â Viktor is shaking his head, holding up his hands like heâs pushing me away. But before he can speak, the dude in the green baseball cap and headset opens the door and sticks his head in.
âSorryâViktor, weâre getting slammed. Without Neil, Iâm still a man down. Can you get him back here?â
Viktor shakes his head and starts to answer. But I see my opening and go for it.
âIâll do it,â I interrupt. âIâm your man. Tell me what to do.â Both Viktor and baseball-cap guy look at me, surprised. After a moment, Viktor shrugs.
âOkay, okay,â says Viktor. âYou work here for a while, letâs see how you ride. Then we talk about coaching.â
Chapter Five
As we leave his office, Viktor says to me, âYou ride with Robin today. You listen, do what youâre told.â
âSure, whatever,â I say, walking away. I just want to get started. But Viktor slaps a hand on my shoulder and pulls me around. He looks at me hard.
âNo. No sure. No whatever.â He leans in, bringing the smell of cigarettes with him. âYou want to work for me? You want to learn? You follow two simple rules.â
Surprised, I just nod.
âFirst, you donât talk back. You do what youâre told every time. Every time.â He punches me in the chest with a finger to make his point. I nod again.
âSecond, you