youâll be saved the trouble,â he had said, and was gone. And that was the last touch and the last word she had had from Robin OâHara.
She left the touch alone, but she told Bill about the words, her voice halting on the syllables and ceasing when she had said âtrouble.â It was trouble he had brought her, and it was the last of all the words that he had had for her.
After a time she said suddenly, âLetters kept coming for him. Then Colonel Garratt rang up. I said I didnât know where he was, and he said they didnât know either. I went to see him, and he asked me if Robin had told me what he was doing. I said no, he never talked about his work. Then Colonel Garratt said Robinâs job wasnât a dangerous one, but he thought heâd been working a line of his own, and that it might have taken him up against very dangerous people. He said they would make inquiries. A week later they found his wallet in the river. It was quite empty. Colonel Garratt said I ought to be preparedâthey thought something had happened to Robin. In Decemberâthere was a bodyâthey thoughtâwas his. I thought he was dead.â
âGarratt wrote to me in December.â
Grim details about an unrecognizable corpse had been Garrattâs idea of a Christmas letter.
âI thought he was dead,â said Meg again.
âAnd what made you think he wasnât?â
She lifted her hand to her cheek and leaned on it. The worst part was over.
âColonel Garratt said I ought to see a lawyer and get leave to presume death. There wasnât any will. There was a little money in the bank, but there was a packet of some sort labelled âTo be opened by my wife in case of my death.ââ
Bill exclaimed.
âI think itâs only papers. They wouldnât let me see it or anything. He had only brought it in the week before. The manager said he must have legal proof that Robin was dead before he could hand it over. I donât suppose itâs anything that matters. It canât be money, because he was always saying how hard up he was.â
It sounded off to Bill. But then OâHara was just the sort of fellow to do an odd thing like that. He said with a frown,
âDid you see a lawyer?â
Megâs hand went down again. She said,
âNo.â
âWhy didnât you?â
âBecause thatâs when I began to think Robin wasnât dead.â
âWhy?â
âThings began to happen.â
âWhat things?â
âLittle thingsâthey frightened me. Itâs so dreadful not to be sure. Itâs so dreadful to think that thereâs someone who wants to keep you like thatânot sureânever knowing.â
Her hands were twisting in her lap, fingers interlocked and knuckles white. Bill leaned forward and put his own hand over them, a big, warm hand.
âSteady, Meg. Just go on telling me what happened.â
She didnât speak at once. A minute dragged by. He wondered what she was going to say. He took his hand away and leaned back, and as if that had been a signal, Meg said,
âThe first thing was a newspaper. Someone must have put it in the letter-box. I found it on the floor when I got up.â
The bitter cold of that January morning came back as she spoke. Her feet were as cold as they had been bare on the linoleum and she had stopped to pick the paper up. It wasnât a paper she had ever taken. She told Bill that, and was glad to have something that was easy to say.
âIt wasnât a paper Iâd ever had before. It hadnât come through the post. I thought it had been left by mistake. It was folded inside out. I thought that was funny. Then I saw some of the letters were underlined. No, thatâs wrongâthey werenât underlinedâthey had lines drawn round them. I couldnât help putting the marked letters together. The first one was an I. After that an A and an M, and
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