just back the hell up instead of coming into her space. Having him so closeâsmelling him, seeing him, looking into his dark eyes as he spokeâit was too much. After trying to forget him for so long, suddenly every memory, every touch was rushing back so fast it was almost impossible to breathe.
Hope inhaled deeply, the smell of cow dung way more calming than the citrusy scent of Chase. She glanced sideways, noticed the wayward curl of his dark hair. Heâd kept it shorter in college, and now it was more unruly, but it suited him. Just a little too long at the back and around his ears, almost black, and so hard not to touch.
Enough . She hadnât thought about Chase in a long time and she didnât need to start now. She was here for work and that was it.
âWhat I need to do today is give them a work-up, make sure everythingâs in order, then we can go about getting them in calf. You know the drill.â
Chase cleared his throat. âI donât want to sound like a jerk, but we only purchased a modest number of straws. Are we looking at a pretty high take rate?â
Hope met his gaze, but she kept her body angled so she hadnât turned her back on the cows. She had enough experience to know how easy it was to land a sideways kick.
âUnderstood. Each insemination has to count, and Iâll only inseminate the ones that fit the criteria perfectly.â She nodded as she glanced over them all again, pleased with how they looked from the outsetâa healthy herd of big young cows. âAlthough from looking at them I doubt weâll find any obvious problems from the outset.â
âNateâs riding me big-time over this so I need to prove it was the right decision,â Chase said. âHeâd turn this whole place into an oil field if it wasnât for me riding his ass to keep our stock numbers high.â
âNateâs your oldest brother, right?â She was only making conversation, there was nothing about Chase sheâd forgotten.
âYep, thatâs him.â Chase took a step back and leaned on the railings, his elbows pushed down, legs relaxed as he kicked them out, one ankle crossed over the other. âMy granddadâs stepped down from the day-to-day running now, and Nateâs handling the business side of things with me in charge of the ranches. We have a couple other places nearby, too.â
âSo youâre living the dream, huh?â she mused, ducking beneath the timber so she was no longer in the yard.
âI guess, yeah.â Chase followed her back through, frowning when she turned to look at him. âWhat about you? What the hell are you doing living and working so far from home anyway?â
Damn . Sheâd walked into that question all on her own. âAh, things didnât work out quite as planned.â Hope tried to look unconcerned, her natural reaction to make up an excuse and get the hell out of dodge to avoid Chaseâs questions. But he didnât know, couldnât know , any of it, which meant she just needed to avoid the topic for as long as she could. If not forever. She could tell him about her ranch one day if she had to, but that was it. Sheâd moved on, dealt with what had happened, and what he didnât know wasnât doing him any harm. Hell, heâd probably forgotten all about her the day they graduatedâshe was a quick blast from the past for him and that was it.
âSo your familyâ¦â
âChase, have you thought about how many heifers you want me to do in the first round of inseminations?â she interrupted, desperate to get the topic off her and back on work. âWe could do a few first, monitor the results before continuing on? Then we could let Nate see for himself how good these New Zealand straws are. Iâm guessing that quality is more important than speed given what youâve told me.â
If Chase was surprised by how rudely sheâd