Wait here a minute.â
Mom vanished into the dining room.
I sat looking around the kitchen in puzzlement, at last fixing on the covered Styrofoam plates that held our dinner, waiting to be popped into the microwave. And I thought the day had been long and weird before I crossed the bridge into Queens. What the hell was going on here? Well, at least my mother hadnât tried to reach me at NYU. That sure would have resulted in an interesting phone message. But I had always discouraged her from calling me at work, telling her that as a part-timer I didnât really have an office of my own.
âLook at these.â
She handed me two pieces, one a standard tourist postcard with a corny photo of the Eiffel Tower, the other a telegram.
I turned the postcard over and read:
âLong time No see. Hate to ask you but Iâm strapped. Can you spare anything? Just send what you canâif you can. Love, Viv.â
The postmark on the card was about three weeks old.
There was an address beneath her signature. A place on the rue du Cardinal Lemoineâmy Lord, Viv was in Paris.
I looked up at Mom and began to ask a question, but she ordered me to read the telegram first, which was dated a week or so after the postcard.
JEAN
DID YOU GET MY CARD?
WORSE. I CANâT GET OUT.
VIV.
âWhatâs this about?â I asked, the fear rising in my voice.
âI donât know, honey. I donât know.â Her spine stiffened then and her eyes took on a glassy look. âI finally called⦠him . I mean, he is her brother.â
âYouâre kidding! You called Daddy?â
She nodded.
I tried to imagine White Mrs. Daddy picking up the phone in their apartment near Lincoln Center. Handing the receiver over. Jesus, the look on his face when she told him who it was.
âWhat did he say?â I asked. âDid Viv write to him too?â
âYes. But he doesnât want to know anything about Vivian. Says he tore the card up without reading it. Itâs a sin. I told him I hoped one day he would be hurting in the same way and when he reached out for helpâwell, never mind. I told him I think itâs a sin, thatâs all.â
I shook my head. âWow. This is so weird. What are you going to do? You donât have any money to send her, and if Pop wonât do itââ
âHe wouldnât give it to her, but I managed to shame him into giving me something for you.â
â Me? What do you mean?â
She pulled out a chair for herself then and sat down in it before answering. âListen, Nan.â
âWhat?â
âI donât have any money to spare. Butâwell, I do have it, but itâs not mine. As a matter of fact itâs Vivianâs money.â
âWhat are you talking about, Mother?â
âI mean I actually do have some money for Vivianâespecially for her. When your grandfather died he left most of what he had to your daddy, naturally. And you got enough to take that beautiful trip. But you know how he was. He feuded with Viv just like your father did, but at the end he wanted to come to some kind of peace with her. Nobody even knew where Vivian was at the time. So he left her some money, and gave it to me to keep for her. Itâs in a special account. Waiting. There must be close to ten thousand in it by now.â
âTen thousand dollars! That sure sounds like enough to bail her out of trouble. And you mean youâve had this money all along?â
âYes. I knew sooner or later weâd hear from her again.â
âBut not like this,â I said.
âNo. Not like this. And soâ¦â She glanced away from me then.
âWhat is it?â
âI know itâs a lot to ask, Nan. You havenât seen Viv since you were a kid. I just know sheâs over there drinking, broke, stranded somewhere. Maybe even sick. I wouldnât know where to begin to help her. I donât know how Iâd