like a couple of two-by-twice tinhorns. Neither of them had nerve enough to talk up to Bob Heseltineâ¦but neither had I.
âI got to go back,â I said, âI got to go back and make my fight. Else Iâll always think I was scared.â
âYou and me, Ed,â Pa said, âweâve had our troubles but you never showed anything but sand. Thereâs scared smart and then thereâs scared stupid. I think that you did the right thing.â Pa reached for a stick lying among the branches of a fallen tree, and he had out his bowie. âWeâre going back, boy, but weâre going together.â
Weâd taken our time. Pa had a pipe after his coffee and while he smoked he worked on a crutch. My mouth was all dry inside and my stomach was queasy, but once we decided to go back I felt a whole lot better. It was like Iâd left something unfinished back there that just had to be done.
And I kept thinking of Sites, not willing to face up to it, and Reese, who was supposed to be my friend, wanting to kill me.
âYou did right, Ed,â Pa told me, speaking around his pipe stem. âYou did the smart thing. They will think you were scared off.â
âThat Heseltineâ¦they say heâs killed a dozen men. Heâs robbed banks and heâs got a mean reputation.â
âI like to see a mean man,â Pa said. âMost of them donât cut much figger.â
Pa had finished working out his crutch. It wasnât much, just a forked stick trimmed down a mite so he could use the fork to hold under his armpit. I helped him to the horse, and once he got a foot in the stirrup and a hand on the horn he was in that saddle. Meanwhile I smothered our fire. Nobody wants to turn fire loose in grass or timber unless heâs a fool.
âA bank robber donât shape up to me,â Pa said. âWhen he goes into a bank with a gun, he donât figure to get shot at. If he expected it heâd never take the first step. He threatens men with folks depending on them and steals money heâs too lazy to work for.
âThe James boys swaggered it mighty big until a bunch of home folks up at Northfield shot their ears off, and the Dalton gang got the same thing in Coffeyville. The McCarty boys tried it in Colorado, and all those bold outlaws were shot down by a few quiet men who left their glass-polishing or law books to do it.â
Well, all those outlaws had seemed mighty exciting until Pa put it thataway, but what he said was true. Pa was a little man himself, only weighed a hundred and thirty pounds, though he had the strongest hands I ever did see. Strong hands from plowing, shoeing horses, and wrassling steers.
Close to midnight we fetched up to their fire.
âHelp me down, Ed,â Pa said, whispering. âI want to be on the ground.â
We walked up to the fire, our boots making small sounds in the grass. Pa was carrying my Colt in his right hand, and I carried a shell under the hammer of my Henry rifle. Those boys werenât much account at keeping watch; they were setting around a blanket playing cards for our money.
âYou boys are wasting time,â Pa told them. âYouâre playing with money that donât belong to you.â
Pa had that crutch under his left shoulder, but he held that Colt in one big hand and it pointed like a finger at Heseltine.
âHear youâre a killing man,â Pa said to him, âbut you size up to me like a no-account, yellow-bellied loafer.â
âYou got the drop,â Heseltine said. âYou got a loud mouth when you got the drop.â
âThe drop? You figure weâre in some kind of dime novel? Ed, you keep an eye on those others. If either of them make a move, shoot both of them and after theyâre laying on the ground, shoot them again!â
Deliberately Pa lowered the muzzle until it pointed into the grass beside his foot. âNow, Ed tells me youâre a fast