first!â
âCliff, you have to have patience. Soon youâll beââ
âStart one more of those sickening lectures and Iâll vomit right on the floor. Have patience . . . read . . . get interested in a hobby . . . do something constructive! Whatâll I do, weave baskets or sell pencils? Stan, you got to either keep your mouth shut or get the hell out. You stopped being the big brother a long time ago!â
His face was very red and he was getting more and more excited. Without knowing it he was trying to pull himself up from the couch. I pushed him down gently and arranged the pillows behind him more comfortably.
âAs a martyr you make a good drunk, Cliff. Youâre going to do something for yourself and stop feeling sorry whether you like it or not. One thing is sure, weâre not staying here. As soon as youâre a little stronger weâre going west. This burg is too cold.â
He looked at me quickly. âSure itâs not because itâs too hot?â He thought that was clever, and what he said next even more so.
âYou look kind a pale, Stan. See a ghost, or did you almost become one? I told you monk around and youâd get more than you could handle.â
âGo to sleep, Cliff.â
âGo to sleep, Cliff.â He imitated my voice. âYou really think youâre God Almighty, donât you? Go to sleep, Cliff!â He did it the same way. âYouâre just too goddamn smart for your own good.â He was pulling himself off the couch again. âI hope they put you to sleep! Even if you are my brother.â
I turned out the lights and went into the bedroom without answering. He kept it up for a while, but I couldnât make out what he was saying. I knew he wouldnât have spoken that way if he were sober, but I still couldnât help liking him a little less, and went to sleep wondering if what I was doing was worth the time and effort.
I expected Cliff to be in a better mood the next morning. Maybe if he had gotten some sleep he would have been, but I noticed the bottle on the table was empty. Cliff was still half drunk, but now the other half of him was hungover, and he was in an uglier mood. I told him I was going out for a while and he told me to GET THE HELL OUT . . . so he could have the last word.
I drove to Hendersonâs Corner, about two miles down the road,had two cups of coffee, got cigarettes, and then went across the road to the post office.
I bought one stamped envelope, and had to tell the clerk three times that I thought the weather stunk before I could get away from the window and over to an addressing table near the door.
You donât have to be too sneaky about dropping a .45 caliber bullet into an envelope. It isnât that big. So I didnât worry about anyone being a witness to my breaking the law. I addressed it to Carrito in care of Jadeâs, the joint on Beaubien, and dropped it into the box.
I was more than halfway home when I realized my mistake. The Grass Lake postmark would stand out like muscles on a snake dancer! For Carrito not to notice it, heâd have to be as dumb as I was when I pulled the stunt.
I raced the rest of the way, trying to think of how to get Cliff out of town in the shortest possible time. I turned into the drive, pulled up behind the cottage, and then noticed the gray, â49 Buick over to the left and partly among the trees. I took it for granted who the visitor was, but I didnât take for granted heâd have a friend along. Not until . . .
âOut of the car, Jack. No tricks.â
I turned fast. The right front door opened and a young, good-looking guy in a drapey gray flannel suit was standing there with his left hand on the handle. I couldnât see the other hand because it was inside the coatâwhere a shoulder holster hangs. I got out his side.
âLetâs go inside, Jack.â Thatâs all he had to say.
Marty Carrito