heartâs knocking at my chest, and the whole worldâs gone quiet, like that instant of silence right before something hits you. Then,
fwap,
something really does hit me. A folder bounces off my head, light and not so bad. Iâve never been drunk, but this must be the feeling:
How did my own folder hit me in thehead? How did it get on the ground in front of me when itâs still right here in my hand?
The sound of lockers and voices comes rushing in like the start of a record, and thereâs a guy standing over me saying, âSorry about that, little man.â Heâs skinny and tall, and heâs got one of those crop cuts where your hair is flat and straight like the Beatles before they became hippies, but thereâs also this spot in the back of your head where itâs chopped short and sticks up kind of random. It looks like a mistake. Heâs wearing a button-up gas station shirt with the name
Gus
sewn on it.
He asks me to hand the folder up and Iâve got no choice. It really may have been an accident, and besides, heâs got a couple friends waiting around. So I hand it back up to him and he says, âThanks, bud,â and slams his locker shut.
As soon as âYouâre welcome, Gusâ is out of my mouth, his buddies laugh and all three of them walk away.
.
I write down a few names in my Spanish class and me and Keith go over the list at lunch. He circles the names of people he thinks heâs heard of. He tells me the whole thing at my locker is no accident; upperclassmen love getting top lockers because the things they drop can pick up more speed before they hit you. âYouâre lucky it wasnât a history book.â
After lunch, weâve got PE together with Coach Scheffler. All freshmen. When class is about over, weâre hanging out in the locker room, waiting for the bell to ring, and all these guys in jeans and letterman jackets start walking in. Who knows how they gotout of fifth period before everyone else, and whoâd stop them? They donât look like high school kids. Theyâre tall and wide, thick necks and massive thighs. Half of them have five oâclock shadows and itâs only one thirty.
Most of them go straight into the varsity room, but as the bell rings to end fifth period, one of the biggest guys steps into the hallway. Everybody goes around him like heâs a boulder in a river. Then he puts out his arm, the leather from his jacket crinkling, and wraps it around Keithâs neck. âHereâs our guy,â he yells back into the varsity room. He wraps his arm around Keithâs shoulder. âYou want to help out the team?â Only, heâs not asking. Heâs telling.
âYou wait right here,â he says to me. When he turns and walks Keith into the varsity room, I catch the name stitched on the back of his jacket:
Petrakis.
A few minutes later, guys start coming out of the varsity room, one by one, carrying their helmets and wearing shorts and practice jerseys with just their shoulder pads. Petrakis is one of the last guys out the door and he slaps his hand down on my shoulder, telling me it was smart I stayed. He gives me the combination to his locker, which is where heâs left Keith, and says if anything gets messed with heâll shove my head up Keithâs ass and tie us to the flagpole.
The bell rings for the start of sixth period, but Keith doesnât say anything until weâre outside walking. âIf you get in trouble for being late,â he says without looking at me, âjust say you went to the wrong classroom.â
Iâm nodding and smirking, and because Keith looks more mad than scared, I say, âWhatâs it like being âthe guyâ?â
Keith, it turns out, is the guy small enough to fit into a varsitylocker and still move around. Petrakis locked him in there and made him rub his shirt all over the back and sides to dust. âThis is exactly