weâre lucky, weâll both look back at this day and youâll say âThank you, Tenny, for caring enough to protect me from the big and the bad.â
4) REVELATION
Brontë comes into my room that night, grabs me by the shoulders, and pushes me back onto my bed so hard, my head hits the wall.
âOw!â
âYouâre pond scum!â she says to me.
I donât deny the charge, but sometimes pond scum prevails.
âWhat did you say to him behind the walrus?â she asks.
âI read him his Miranda rights,â I told her. âHe has the right to remain silent; he has the right to find some other girl to drool overâyâ know, the normal things youâd say to a criminal.â
âHeâs never been arrested!â she said. âThose are just stories made up by idiots like you. Heâs just misunderstood; but I, for one, am making the effort to understand him. Hewill not give in to your threats; and I will not stop seeing him, no matter how much bullying you do!â
That makes me laugh. âBullying? Give me a break.â
âItâs true, Tennyson! Youâre a bully. Youâve always been a bully.â
âSays who?â I immediately imagine punching out anyone who might call me a bully, and then realize that my own thoughts are proving Brontëâs point, which just makes me want to punch someone even more. This is what we call a vicious cycle, and I donât feel all that good about it. I never thought of myself as a bully; and although this isnât the first such accusation, itâs the first one that breaks through my defenses and hits home. Suddenly I realize that maybe, in some peopleâs eyes, I am. This is what we call a revelation. Revelations are never convenient, and always annoying.
âStay away from Brewster!â she warns me, then she turns to leave; but I donât let her go.
âI get it, okay?â I tell her. She lingers by the door. âHeâs the first boy you like who likes you back, so it feels kind of special. I get it.â
She turns to me, some of her steam cooling in the kettle. âHeâs not the first,â she says. âJust the first in my adult life.â
I find it funny that weâre the same age, give or take a quarter of an hour, and yet she considers herself an adult.
âBe careful, Brontëâ¦because you have to admit, this guyis kind of⦠beneath you.â
She looks at me before she leaves, sadly shaking her head. â You be careful, Tenny. Being a snob can make a person very, very ugly.â
5) FACTOIDS
I never considered myself a bully. I never considered myself a snob. But then, who does? Thereâs a way to objectively analyze it. All you have to do is look at the facts.
Fact #1) Iâm reasonably smart. Iâm no genius, but I get good grades without ever having to try. It really ticks off the kids who have to study their brains out to make the grade. Itâs not like I brag about it, but my mere existence is enough to breed resentment in certain circles.
Fact # 2) Iâm coordinated. Not my fault either, I just came that way. It made it easier for me to excel at sports when I was a kid and to build the skills to be a contender in quite a few of them.
Fact #3) Iâm reasonably decent looking. Iâm no pretty boy, and I donât have six-pack abs or anything; but when it comes to looks, confidence counts for a lot, and Iâm nothing if notconfident. Between you and me, I think I project a lot better looking than I actually am.
Fact #4) Weâre not exactly hurting for money. Weâre by no means rich, but we donât go hungry either. Both Mom and Dad have tenure at the university and pull in decent salaries. They drive modest but respectable cars, and I suspect that when Brontë and I start driving, weâll both get our own modest but respectable cars.
So, does all this make me a snob? Is it wrong for me
Stephen Goldin, Ivan Goldman