wife.â He echoed it as if he had to be reminded that she was even in the room, then he pulled his mind back to it. âOf course! My wife. You found her attractive?â
âWell, yes,â I said. âBut I need to make it absolutely clear that I had no idea that she was married. I would never have any desire to humiliate you in any way, and you can count on my complete discretion . . .â
âHumiliate me?â He seemed astounded at the notion. âDiscretion? What are you talking about? I get bragging rights!â
âWhat?â I felt as if Iâd wandered into the middle of another conversation entirely.
âToo right! Waitâll I tell the lads!â he said. âBen Finn nearly had it off with my wife!â
âWhat?â Jennifer had finally found her voice, and there was nothing but incredulity in it. Truth be told, I couldnât exactly blame her. I wasnât sure how to react either. âYouâre . . . youâre going to boast about this?â
âShut up,â said Clixby. âYouâre lucky I donât hold you down and let him have his way with you, just to teach you a lesson.â
âTy!â Her voice went up an octave. She tried to say something more, but her mouth moved without any sounds emerging from it.
I didnât think he was serious. I sure hoped he wasnât. I cleared my throat, and said, âYouâre, ah . . . very broadminded, not holding this little misunderstanding against me.â
âOh, under ordinary circumstances, Iâd blow the other manâs brains out. But youâre different. Youâre Ben Finn.â
âSo?â
âSo if the great Ben Finn thinks my wife is attractive enough to have off, that just reflects well on me, right?â
There has rarely been an occasion when I didnât have some sort of glib response, but this was certainly one of those times. I supposed I should have been flattered, and I guess on some level I was. But the entire business seemed madness to me. I slid my feet into my boots, and, forcing a smile, said, âLook . . . youâre welcome to tell anyone anything you want. I honestly donât care. But I donât exactly feel comfortable having it off with your wife, with or without your endorsement, and I sure as hell am not going to do it while pointing a gun at her head. So if youâll excuse me, Iâll be on my way. In fact, even if you donât excuse me, Iâll be on my way.â
âYes, yes, by all means,â said Clixby. He stepped aside and indicated that the way was clear. Even as I passed him, I watched him warily, concerned that he might still have a trick up his sleeve. That this whole business was just to put me off guard so he could try to ambush me at the last moment. Such, however, was not the case. He made no move toward his rifle, nor any other move really except to bow slightly and gesture for me to pass. That I did quickly, never taking my gaze from him. I neednât have worried. He was too busy adoring me.
âFinn!â came Jenniferâs sharp voice from behind me. I turned.
She raised an eyebrow and mouthed, Stay in touch. Then she winked.
I hastened down the stairs, gathering my wits about me, and emerged into the street moments later. It was still early in the evening, the air crisp as I breathed it in deeply.
It felt stale in my lungs. I tried to figure out why and did so immediately.
I had become a popular, even a cult, figure. There was no outrage to my presence. I had always enjoyed being someone who lived on the outskirts of society; that was where I felt the most comfortable. People wanted and expected the least of you, and when youâre dwelling on the outskirts, it becomes that much easier to depart. Instead, I had reached a point in my life where I was a damned status symbol. My wife slept with Ben Finn! Drinks all around! That just wasnât right.
âIâve got to get out