not so soon after the frog. Plus you never win friends at sports carnivals. If you come first people think youâre a show-off, if you come last they think youâre a dork, and if you come in the middle they donât notice you.
âOne hundred metres, boys,â said Ms Dunning and just about every boy in the class stuck his hand up. When sheâd finished writing down all the names, she said âOne hundred metres, girlsâ.
No one moved.
Then the whole class turned and looked at a girl sitting on the other side of the room.
I donât know why I hadnât noticed her before because sheâs got the most ringlets Iâve ever seen on one human head in my life. The colourâs fairly ordinary, barbecue-sauce-brown, but the curls are amazing. She must keep a whole hairdressing salon in business just by herself.
Everyone watched as she looked embarrassed and raised her hand.
âAmanda Cosgrove,â smiled Ms Dunning, writing on her list. âWho else?â
No one moved.
âCome on,â said Ms Dunning, âAmanda canât run the race by herself.â
Amanda was looking even more embarrassed now.
Must be another new kid, I thought. I wondered what sheâd done to make everyone not want to race with her, and whether it had involved jamming something in Darryn Peckâs mouth.
She was looking so uncomfortable I found myself feeling sorry for her.
Which must have been why I put my hand up.
âRowena Batts,â said Ms Dunning, writing down my name. âGood on you, Ro. Now, whoâs going to follow Roâs example?â
No one moved.
âOK,â sighed Ms Dunning, âIâll have to choose some volunteers.â
While she did, and the people she chose groaned and rolled their eyes, the girl next to me scribbled a note and passed it over.
I thought for a moment sheâd got it wrong and thought I was deaf, but then I remembered that youâre not meant to talk in class in normal schools.
I read the note.
âAmanda Cosgrove,â it said, âis the 100 metres champion of the whole school.â
I smiled to myself. At least tomorrow people wonât be thinking Iâm a show-off. And as the rest of the people were dragged into the race, and itâs really hard to sulk and run at the same time, I can probably manage not to come last.
My heart didnât sink until several minutes later.
When Ms Dunning reminded everyone that sports carnivals are family events, and sheâs hoping to see as many parents there as possible.
Since then Iâve been feeling a bit tense. Nothing serious, my knees arenât pink or anything, but Iâve got a bit of a knot in the guts. Not Tasmania or anything, but Lord Howe Island.
The other kids keep looking at me a bit strangely, so it must be showing.
Ms Dunning even asked if Iâm feeling OK.
I reached for my notepad, then had second thoughts and just smiled and nodded.
I couldnât bring myself to tell her the truth.
That I keep having horrible visions of Dad in the middle of the oval singing to everyone, and everyone backing away.
I thought about not telling him.
I didnât tell him all the way home in the truck.
By the time we got home I felt terrible.
Hereâs Dad busting a gut moving us here and fixing up the house and knocking the new orchard into shape, all so I can go to a proper school and live at home, and hereâs me not even inviting him to the first chance heâs really had to meet people in our new town.
OK, second chance if you count the conversation he had with the man in the milk bar about how if the man didnât want people to cheer and thump the wall he shouldnât have got a video game in the first place.
I mean, Dad gets lonely too.
He doesnât talk about it, but he must do.
Heâs left all his friends behind as well, including girlfriends.
All for me.
Even before we left he always put me first. He never invited his