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interrogator leaned back in the chair. He crossed his legs, but first he gave his perfectly creased pants the slightest yank. So they wouldn’t wrinkle. I hated that little yank; it was like a razor against my skin. It told me who had all the power in the room.
    I had had no real sleep for three days. I reeked of sweat. If grief has a stench, that was what I smelled like. The new interrogator was fortyish, African American, with gray spiraling in his goatee and stylish steel-framed glasses. I told him what I told interrogator one and interrogator two. I told the truth.
    “I am not a traitor. I don’t believe my wife is a traitor, either.”
    Howell took off his glasses. He reminded me of one of my old history professors back at Harvard. A calm coolness surrounded him. “I think I believe you.”
    Was this a trick? “No one else does.”
    Howell rested the end of the glasses’ earpiece against his lip. He studied me for a long, uncomfortable silence. I liked the silences. No one called me names or accused me of treason. He opened a file and started the old litany again, as if any of my answers might change. He would keep asking me the same questions to wear me down, to wait for my mistake.
    “Your full name is Samuel Clemens Capra.”
    “Yes.”
    He raised an eyebrow. “Samuel Clemens was Mark Twain.”
    “He’s my dad’s favorite author, and my mother vetoed Huckleberry and Tom Sawyer as choices.” Normally that story would make me laugh, but nothing was normal anymore.
    “I want to call my father before I answer your questions,” I said. I hadn’t asked for this in the past three days of questioning. What would I say to him? But now I wanted to hear the tobacco-flecked warmth of my dad’s voice. I wanted to find my wife. I wanted to be out of this awful, dark, stone room that had no windows. It was stupid to ask. But it felt like fighting back after the endless questions, making my own modest stand.
    “I didn’t think you got along at all well with your parents.”
    I said nothing. The Company knew everything about me, as they should.
    “Your parents didn’t even know you and Lucy were expecting, did they?”
    “No.” It seemed a shameful admission. Family strains should stay private.
    “You haven’t spoken to your parents for three years, except for a brief phone call at Christmas. None of the calls lasted more than two minutes.”
    “That’s correct.”
    “Three years. Some have suggested that’s how long you’ve been working against us. You cut off your parents so they wouldn’t be suspicious of your activities, would not be involved in your treason.”
    “You just said you believed I wasn’t a traitor.”
    “I’m telling you what others in the Company are saying about you.” He leaned forward. “A classic sign of treason is emotional distance from extended family and friends.”
    “I didn’t cut my family off. My parents stopped talking to
me
. It wasn’t my choice. And I wasn’t going to use my own child to get back in their good graces. Can I call my father? Will you let me do that?”
    “No, Sam.” Howell tapped the earpiece against his bottom lip and considered my file, as though mining it for further pain. I wondered what else was inside those few sheets of paper. “Your wife called you and warned you to get out of the office before the bomb exploded.”
    “She was being kidnapped. I saw her struck by a man.”
    “And why would her kidnapper allow her to call you?”
    “I don’t know. Maybe he wasn’t in the car then, maybe she had a phone.”
    “But she didn’t say she was being kidnapped.”
    “She was trying to save me. To get me out.”
    “But not the rest of the office. She didn’t say, ‘Evacuate, Sam,’ did she?”
    I closed my eyes; the stone of the cell floor chilled mybare feet. “No.” I was sure I was no longer in the United Kingdom. Back in London the Company—the term used for the CIA by me and my colleagues—and British intelligence had heard