great ambiguous work of art,â said Clifford Larr. âWill you favour a Freudian interpretation?â
âNo, I think a Marxist one.â
âUgh.â
âDonât be so negative, Hilary.â
âWhy not a Christian interpretation, Peter as the Christ Child?â
âHilary says why not a Christian interpretation!â
âReggie Farbottom will play Smee.â
âAaargh.â
âHilary is envious.â
âI must be going now,â said Clifford Larr. He always left early. We all trooped upstairs.
After he had gone and we were sitting in the drawing-room drinking coffee he was of course discussed.
âSuch an unhappy man,â said Laura. âIâm so sorry for him.â
âI donât know anything about him,â I said, âbut I donât know why you assume heâs unhappy. You two are always assuming people are unhappy so that you can pity them. I suspect you think heâs unhappy just because he isnât married. You probably think Iâm unhappy. As soon as Iâve gone youâll say, âPoor Hilary, Iâm so sorry for him, heâs so unhappyâ.â
âDonât bite us, Hilary,â said Freddie. âSome whisky?â
âA smudgeling.â
âA what?â
âA smudgeling.â
âWell, I persist in thinking heâs unhappy,â said Laura, pouring the whisky. âHe looks like an interesting man but heâs so stiff and solemn and he only wants to talk about the pound. He never talks about anything personal. I think heâs got a secret sorrow.â
âWomen always think men have secret sorrows. Itâs a way of separating them from other women.â
âAnd men like you, Hilary, always think women are against other women.â
âThatâs right, darling, hit him back.â
âAnd he wears a cross round his neck.â
âClifford? Does he?â
âSomething on a chain anyway, I think itâs a cross, I saw it through his nylon shirt last summer.â
âYou arenât angry with me, are you, Laura?â
âOf course not, silly! Hilary talks big but itâs quite easy to put him down.â
âClifford canât be religious, can he?â
âI donât know,â said Freddie, âheâs so remote and clammed up, I doubt if he has any real friends at all. He might be a Roman Catholic. I certainly darenât ask.â
âLaura thinks he needs a woman.â
âHilaryâs crest soon rises again!â
âI want to play Smee.â
âHilary just wants to spite Reggie.â
âAre you serious, Hilary? If you would like to you can be a pirate â â
âOf course Iâm not serious. You know what I think about the office pantomime.â
âHilary is anti-life.â
âYes, thank God.â
âIâm just going to find that brandy,â said Freddie. He went off.
I was never sure whether Freddieâs departures on my Thursdays were purely accidental or whether they were concerted with Laura so that she could interrogate me in a more intimate way. She certainly always set about probing at once and made the most of her time.
âI think youâve got a secret sorrow, Hilary.â
âIâve got about two hundred.â
âTell me one.â
âIâm getting old.â
âNonsense. How is Crystal?â
âAll right.â
âHow is Tommy?â
âAll right.â
âHilary, you are a chatterbox!â
When I left the Impiatts the evening was not yet over for me. I did not stay late since I was expected elsewhere well before midnight. Of course I did not tell my hosts this, they would have thought it âbad formâ. On Thursdays I always went to fetch Arthur Fisch away from Crystal. (Crystal is my sister.) This âfetching awayâ was an old tradition. The idea was that Crystal sometimes found Arthur hard to get rid