Penrose.â
âYouâve never had Waterford, period. Until lately, that is.â
âThatâs true.â Sabrina barely noticed her small slip; no one else did, either. By now she did not guard her tongue as she had in the beginning; if she spoke occasionally from Sabrinaâs background and experience, or did not know what they were talking about when they reminisced together, the others found ways to explain it away. They explained everything away; they always had, from her first night home when they were in the kitchen and sheâd asked Garth and the children where they kept the pot holders. After that there had been dozens of mistakes and slips of the tongue, but no one was suspicious or even curious because, Sabrina realized, people see what they expect to see and they find reasons for oddities to protect the comfortable order and predictability of their lives.
Now, in her living room, she set the decanter on the coffee table and stretched her arms wide. âWhat a wonderful birthday. The best Iâve ever had. Itâs so perfect, being here with all of you, knowing this is where I belong . . .â
âDad, you didnât give Mom a present,â Cliff said accusingly.
âWhere is it?â Penny demanded. âYou told us you got it.â
Garth grinned at Sabrina. âRight again.â He pulled a small velvet box from his shirt pocket and put it in her hand. âWith all my love. For now, for always.â
Sabrina kissed him, then opened the box. A long sigh broke from her.
âWhat is it? What is it?â Penny cried.
âHold it up, Mom!â said Cliff.
âItâs a ring,â Nat said, looking into the box over Sabrinaâs shoulder. âStunning. A star sapphire, yes?â he asked Garth.
âYes,â Garth murmured, his eyes holding Sabrinaâs.
She put her hand along his face. âMy engagement ring.â
âBut youâre already married,â Penny protested.
âI never had an engagement ring,â Sabrina said.
âNeither did I,â said Dolores. âProbably for the same reason: Nat couldnât afford it.â
âNeither could Marty,â Linda said. âGarth, what a nice idea.â
Garth pulled off Sabrinaâs gold wedding band and slipped the engagement ring and wedding band together onto her finger. Sabrina closed her eyes. This ring was for a wedding the others knew nothing about. This was for a rainy December day when Garth had come to London to say he loved her and wanted her and it no longer mattered what she and her sister had done; and for another rainy day two days later, when they took the train to Canterbury, where no one knew them, and bought two gold wedding bands and found a magistrate to marry them. The narrow streets and stones of that ancient town were dark gray, streaked and dripping in the steady downpour, but Sabrina wore a red raincoat and rain hat and she bought Garth a red carnation for his lapel, and when their eyes met as each slipped a ring onto the otherâs finger and the magistrate said âhusband and wife,â they saw in each other the sun, and spring, and hope.
âThank you,â Sabrina said, her lips close to Garthâs. âItâs the most wonderful gift I could have imagined. And the most private; you were right about that. So when weâre alone . . .â
The telephone rang, and abruptly she began to tremble. She knew Penny and Cliff were watching, but she could not stop. She could not hear a late night ring withoutrecalling in terrible detail the night last October when Brooks had called from London, crying, to say that Max Stuyvesantâs yacht had gone down and everyone on board . . . everyone on board . . . everyone on boardâ
âItâs all right.â Garth drew her tightly to him. âItâs all right, my love, weâre all here, itâs all right.â
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