much about my unacceptable pursuits. If I said too little Iâd sound like an arsonist. In the ensuing silence, she tapped one slender finger against the dark walnut of her desk. The sound echoed through the roomâa magistrateâs gavel, consigning me to life in her prison. âYou accidentally set fire to your fatherâs stables?â
My father growled low in his throat and shifted angrily on the delicate Hepplewhite chair.
âYes,â I mumbled, knowing the fire wasnât the whole reason I was here, merely the final straw, a razor-sharp spearlike straw. Unfortunately, there were several dozen pointy spears in my parentsâ quiver of whatâs-wrong-with-Georgiana .
If only they understood. If only the world cared about something beyond my ability to pour tea and walk with a mincing step. I decided to tell Miss Stranje at least part of the truth. âIt was a scientific experiment gone awry. Had I been successfulââ
âSuccessful?â roared my father. He twisted on the flimsy chair, putting considerable stress on the rear legs as he leaned in my direction, numbering my sins on his fingers. âYou nearly roasted my prize hunters alive! Every last horseâscared senseless. Burned the bleedinâ stables to the ground. To the ground! Nothing left but a heap of blackened stone. Our house and fields wouldâve gone up next if the tenants and neighbors hadnât come running to help. That ruddy blaze wouldâve taken their homes and crops, too. Successful? You almost reduced half of High Cross Greene to ash.â
Every word a lashing, I nodded and kept my face to the floor, knowing he wasnât done.
âAs it was, you scorched more than half of Squire Thurgoodâs apple orchard. Iâll be paying dearly for those lost apples over the next three years, I can tell you that. And what about my hounds!â He paused for breath and clamped his teeth together so tight that veins bulged at his temples and his whole head trembled with repressed rage.
In that short fitful silence, I could not help but remember the sound of those dogs baying and whimpering, and the faces of our servants and neighbors smeared with ash as we all struggled to contain the fire, their expressionsâgrim, angry, wishing me to perdition.
âMy kennels are ruined. Blacker and smokier than Satanâs chimneyâ¦â He lowered his voice, no longer clarifying for Miss Stranjeâs sake, and spit one final damning indictment into my face. âYou almost killed my hounds!â He dismissed me with an angry wave of his hand. âSuccessful. Bah!â
My stomach churned and twisted with regret. Accident . It was an accident. I wished he had slapped me. It wouldâve stung less than his disgust.
I wanted to point out the merits of inventing a new kind of undetectable invisible ink. If such an ink had been available, my brother might still be alive. As it was, the French intercepted a British courier and Robertâs company found themselves caught in an ambush. It wouldnât help to say it. I tried the day after the fire and Father only got angrier. Heâd shouted obscenities, called me a foolish girl. âItâs done. Over. Heâs gone.â
Nor would it help to remind him that Iâd nearly died leading the horses out of the mews. His mind was made up. Unlike my fatherâs precious livestock, my goose was well and truly cooked. He intended to banish me, imprison me here at Stranje House just as Napoleon was banished to Elba.
Miss Stranje glanced down at my motherâs letter. âIt says here, that on another occasion Georgiana jumped out of an attic window?â
âI didnât jump. Not exactly.â
âShe did.â Father crossed his arms.
It had happened two and a half years ago. One wouldâve thought theyâd have forgotten it by now. âAnother experiment,â I admitted. âIâd read a treatise about